could you share your opinion about my dream?

[Monica]

I chose celibacy for different reasons, the main one is that ''superficial'' sex isn't as attractive to me as it used to be.

That is commendable!

I think its much more pleasuring if there is a deeper connection, more intimate.

Absolutely!

As for my libido, last time it got checked my body was producing much more testosterone then the average male does. But I agree balancing energies is something that is a must.

Suggestion: You might consider that there is a distinction between casual, red-ray sex with a partner and just relieving the pressure from accumulated testosterone. Perhaps you needn't feel that you've failed in your intention to be celibate, if you allow yourself to scratch that itch, alone.

It sounds like your main objective is to hold out for a deeper experience, rather than suppress your natural urges like a celibate priest is expected to do. So if you treat this as 'celibacy' the way a priest would, it's quite a tall order to 'balance the energies' since the red ray urges are so physical, so primal.

Therefore, allowing that testosterone force to accumulate, unexpressed, might actually interfere with your ultimate goal of playing it cool with the new girl. In other words, here you are confused about your attraction to her, because your energy is pent up. Maybe if you allowed yourself to release that energy as a strictly physical exercise (alone) then it's clear your mind a bit and you'll be better able to discern the source of the attraction to her, without that huge force getting in the way so much.

It'll still be there, of course - no amount of releasing will totally eradicate your physical, red-ray attraction to her - but at least it might not be quite so overpowering!

I am not sure if the attraction I feel for her is red ray or green ray and higher. I feel that even it was from the higher rays, my red ray would kick in and pervert the situation.

Red ray isn't 'bad.' It is one of the rays and sacred in its own way. I wouldn't see it as a perversion. The problem is when red ray is out of balance with the others. Red ray needn't be suppressed and we certainly don't want to block any of the rays. Rather than thinking in terms of quashing red ray, why not let red ray flow, but at the same time, focus on raising that energy up into the higher centers?

What I'm suggesting is that you allow yourself to feel this attraction to this girl (but maybe release the accumulation so it doesn't overpower you quite so much). It's unlikely that it's green ray at this point. How could it be, if you don't even know her yet? Green ray develops over time. You haven't had that time yet, so it's unrealistic to expect yourself to have green ray feelings for someone you just met!

Sure, you might know her from past lives. She might even be your soulmate, or, at the very least, have a soul contract with you. But that doesn't mean your green rays are automatically activated when you first meet in this life!

Give it time. Allow the natural process to unfold. Don't fight it or overanalyze it. Just talk to her, and let the connection unfold. Don't head trip yourself because you're not green ray with her yet!! It's too early for that! You first need to work up through the chakras with her.

Thanks for making me see that I am thinking too much of about his, next time I meet her I'll break the ice, eventhough I am such a wuss when it comes to this!

Great! You'll do fine!

''As long as you don't jump on her right away, you should be fine''

Hahaa! Oh god, this is going to be more difficult then I thought.

Haha!