02-01-2010, 08:24 PM
You may have read about my negative time/space experience. Basically, I got corded to a very powerful negative entity, 5th density likely.
It wants to kill me.
4th density entities can only lead you away from being a beacon of light, 5th density is much more wise and will use all power available to terminate you permanently if their 4th density slaves fail. This is how I've understood it anyway.
I can't sleep this night. When I close my eyes, negative feelings arise, so I keep myself busy in front of the computer. My whole stomach cramps up, a yellow/orange chakra domination, and I just want it all to end swiftly, by any means necessary. Any means. Have you felt completely hopelessness? Death being the only escape. It is completely irrational, as if brought from an outside source, which it likely is, and any positive thoughts I visualize become twisted and turned against me. I am away from my partner right now. I see her face, but it turns into a monster. Thus my light is fading and only my willpower sustains me. I feebly try to keep my little head together.
Can you imagine a fractal of endless despair? You think about one resolution of it, but it is part of a deeper despair, and thus you think about that, and on it goes that way until insanity. That is an attempt to describe this psychic attack. I don't want to describe too much due to it's power of self-suggestion.
I try to see the love in this moment, and realize that the power of separation is always and easily overridden by the integrating and true power of unity. It is my most difficult lesson ever in this incarnation. I see myself, after being in complete darkness, being born again into infinite love and light, for I know the polarity of darkness.
I ask for your helping intention in any way possible, or advise. I likely need guided/professional help with this. What can I do?
It wants to kill me.
4th density entities can only lead you away from being a beacon of light, 5th density is much more wise and will use all power available to terminate you permanently if their 4th density slaves fail. This is how I've understood it anyway.
I can't sleep this night. When I close my eyes, negative feelings arise, so I keep myself busy in front of the computer. My whole stomach cramps up, a yellow/orange chakra domination, and I just want it all to end swiftly, by any means necessary. Any means. Have you felt completely hopelessness? Death being the only escape. It is completely irrational, as if brought from an outside source, which it likely is, and any positive thoughts I visualize become twisted and turned against me. I am away from my partner right now. I see her face, but it turns into a monster. Thus my light is fading and only my willpower sustains me. I feebly try to keep my little head together.
Can you imagine a fractal of endless despair? You think about one resolution of it, but it is part of a deeper despair, and thus you think about that, and on it goes that way until insanity. That is an attempt to describe this psychic attack. I don't want to describe too much due to it's power of self-suggestion.
I try to see the love in this moment, and realize that the power of separation is always and easily overridden by the integrating and true power of unity. It is my most difficult lesson ever in this incarnation. I see myself, after being in complete darkness, being born again into infinite love and light, for I know the polarity of darkness.
I ask for your helping intention in any way possible, or advise. I likely need guided/professional help with this. What can I do?