Why such a close affiliation with the sun?

[Confused]

So you just really enjoy talking to people who appreciate Ra on this forum? Or are you seeking negative attention? Feeling bad for yourself? Trying to play devil's advocate? Are you trying to lead us away from the Law of One and towards "reality"?

I was just feeling down. Not trying to lead anyone.
For some reason, it felt like the amount of light in me went out of control and was causing me physical pain in my kidneys, heart and back all at the same time. I tried everything from closing down my chakras to mentally decreasing my subdensity, which only provided temporary relief. I was up much of last night with a painfully overactive solar plexus chakra that also caused my stomach to hurt. So it wasn't just thinking of Ra that did that, but pretty much anything, including furries that I used to be so fond of.

After some time I just gave up and asked Ra to help. I wasn't sure if they would respond, but I noticed the physical pain began to diminish. I wasn't able to do it on my own. Even surrendering to the light just made it even more painful. It took all night, but asking Ra to help apparantly was my only option. Even when I asked angels to help, the symptoms just got worse.

But I'm doing better now. I asked for Ra's help, and feel much better. I guess I had gotten a sense of guilt because of a somewhat religious background, and my christian friend says that Ra doesn't exist and that we should only go after God.

Dedicated to your powerful spiritual being, dear dear Gemini