anger, depression,compassion, wandering

[norral]

depression sadness to me its part of the same basic problem. u could actually call it homesickness i guess. there have been times when i have been on this planet that i so so dont want to be here. and its not that things are bad or anything like that . i just plain did not want to be here and i mean intensely not what to be on this orb. and many many other wanderers have felt the same way. its just that we are different this is not our home enviornment. many of us came from places where there was not suffering , we lived in kind of a group soul, we had amazing capabilities and we felt oh so connected . and then we come to this ha ha , so not connected to one another.
many times on this planet i have looked at how we treat each other and human beings and the cruelty the inability to feel the others suffering is stunning, absolutely stunning. in the vietnam war we killed about 2 million vietnamese. 2 million people and i never heard anyone worrying about the vietnamese. i was in the air force. we had a rah rah meeting one day to support the war , the colonel talking about how righteous the war was. i got up and said that perhaps we should look at the war from the point of view of the vietnamese ha ha. that went over like a lead balloon ha ha. i was seen as a traitor. no i just had empathy for the intense suffering of that country.
and thats one other thing i forgot to post is that many many of us are empaths. i am. we really really feel the pain of this planet and we walk around wondering why is everyone else so oblivious to it. so keeping in balance on this planet takes a lot of work and a lot of self love and self forgiveness.

norral