Figured it was about time. Sorry this is really long

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thanks for sharing xrad. You most likely are well aware of your ability to express yourself in an expansive way; it needs no confirmation from me

As the day and days went on, I noticed that I was actually smiling a lot more. I actually had a permagrin on my face which never happens as most ask me whats wrong since I seem to have an intense look on my face due to being lost in thought. But now, I've attained that level of being within the moment that makes me actually smile all the time. As I begun to take notice, I began to get back even more. I would great my coworkers with a smile and they would return one. I would talk with such enthusiasm with people that would normally not respond with much yet they were full of cheery happiness. Even my family at Christmas actually looked like they wanted to be there. Something was definitely happening.

As it stands now, I finally have a place of my own after spending the last years sleeping on my parents living room floor. Barely having enough money for gas let alone to do anything with my daughter. This alone time over the passed month has been one of complete and utter happiness. I have regained my sense of purpose which is to help those less fortunate at work. To bring positivity to the many negative faces that I see at work. To always show the positive aspect in a situation instead of embellishing the negative that so many do. To work to create the world that it really could be

these last 2 paragraphs just cap it off. You've reached the place of 'permajoy', as I like to describe it.

it's where everything (no matter how seemingly difficult) becomes re-interpreted as an opportunity for learning, offering assistance, or just being joyous. The modus operandi for life becomes incredibly simple; smile, or try to make someone else smile

it's great to have you around. If I may use this analogy for your life (I hope you find it acceptable); you've grown the lotus out of the mud. Congrats.