01-19-2013, 02:07 AM
(01-18-2013, 08:07 PM)Gemini Wolf Wrote: I used to be really intrigued with big words like "super" and "awesome" and other adjectives that would exaggerate the power behind certain nouns. I realized that words are powerful, so I won't be saying too much. My fingers feel a bit puffy anyway, which is what happens when my body takes in a lot of energy (as I can best describe it) which it needs to then integrate.
Since I've been back on my meds, the synchronicities are pretty astounding (there I go again using a big word). For instance, I am seeing the color blue in a lot of places, in addition to the color green. But the color blue stands out much more, which to me represents 5D.
I think my emotions are balanced out a bit better. My mom's little dog has this high pitched bark that actually seems to hurt my ears when he goes off, so I go right back at him with some shouting to quiet him up. I'm not sure if that's dominating and taking away some polarity, but I've sort of stopped trying to play the polarity game. Same thing with trying to play the anthro game of "how much anthro energy can I absorb without going insane, and then go beyond that to the point where the guardians say "STOP!"? (like they're talking to the entities I thought were God saying "ok, you've tortured him enough."
Love and Light are funny things. Much easier to keep in balance when you're not trying to. And not forced to.
The Logos must be in a good mood today, because it's let me get this message out, without me inadvertently wiping out it's contents by an accidental press of the ESC key. That key which can undo my story. Life is one story after another. When will I decide to end the story, and begin a new one? I did once, when I let God write my next story. But it all comes down to me. I think I'm going to take the pen, and use my own ink to write my own stories, with a little help from my angel friends. Whom I thought was God was not. And so I am left with a nagging cough.
I love you guys, even those spiritual beings who steered me "wrong", if that's really a direction. And I promised this would be short.
This is a balanced me, not trying to be. All that work is behind me. I've been pushed to my limits, and am excited about what lay ahead.
I love how you said that hitting ESC could undo your whole story. How perceptive you are--and what a clever metaphor. :-)