01-19-2013, 10:58 AM
(This post was last modified: 01-19-2013, 11:13 AM by AnthroHeart.)
My work culminated in the last month.
I think I had several transitions. They were like dying but still being alive.
Intuition told me it was "time to die" because my body was weary.
I wasn't scared, but accepted that.
I think it made me stronger.
Once, I asked Ra "Ra, please kill me. Bring me back home."
Another time I said, "Now please, let me die."
A third time my body became in a vegetative state for a few hours which freaked some people out. Though I breathed normally, but I exhibited REM eye movement. They scraped my feet and I couldn't feel it very much. They pressed a knuckle into my chest and I barely felt that because my consciousness was at a higher subdensity than my body. Had to rush me to the hospital where they put 3 catheters in me, one after the other and I came out of it.
Not sure what to make of all of it, but it makes my desire of living all that much more profound.
Here's a song that fits well with my current mood. Pics of the guy behind Owl City I believe. He's cute along with that guy from Nickelback.
I love his shirts that say "I AM".
Reality is a lovely place, but I wouldn't want to live there, meaning I do want magic in my life at times.
I think I had several transitions. They were like dying but still being alive.
Intuition told me it was "time to die" because my body was weary.
I wasn't scared, but accepted that.
I think it made me stronger.
Once, I asked Ra "Ra, please kill me. Bring me back home."
Another time I said, "Now please, let me die."
A third time my body became in a vegetative state for a few hours which freaked some people out. Though I breathed normally, but I exhibited REM eye movement. They scraped my feet and I couldn't feel it very much. They pressed a knuckle into my chest and I barely felt that because my consciousness was at a higher subdensity than my body. Had to rush me to the hospital where they put 3 catheters in me, one after the other and I came out of it.
Not sure what to make of all of it, but it makes my desire of living all that much more profound.
Here's a song that fits well with my current mood. Pics of the guy behind Owl City I believe. He's cute along with that guy from Nickelback.
I love his shirts that say "I AM".
Reality is a lovely place, but I wouldn't want to live there, meaning I do want magic in my life at times.