Who can we pray to?

[AnthroHeart]

I know it's based on person's faith, and I don't want to get into a religious discussion, but I feel that the God I was trusting may have let me down. When I asked his name, he told me Jehovah. Isn't that the war god from the bible?

If we want to have miracles happen in our life, and get things flowing, do we pray to our higher self, our guardian angel, source, creator? Does Creator really do anything but just experience itself?

Or are we all alone expecting to figure this out for ourselves and the responsibility for solving all our problems lies with us?

I feel alone right now, even though I remember feeling so loving yesterday. I'm out of work on disability. I try not to worry that I may lose my beloved dog at any moment. He may be taken away. But even then, is it wise to still trust in a God that you feel may have betrayed you?

Or am I just silly because I'm seeing this through the eyes of a human and I don't have a higher perspective. And that like Job from the bible shouldn't complain. I think it's alright to get upset at God.

But who can I pray to? Who can I turn to?

As the creator of my own reality, it seemed a little strange that I would decide where I wanted God to go. God is still a mystery to me.

I don't know what will happen to my "Universe" after I pass on, and leave it behind. Sometimes I feel like, what if I'm an angel of God and don't realize it? At least I've repented. God cast that demon out of me that was causing such perversion in my life.

Thank you for listening.