Who can we pray to?

[Aaron]

Aaron, I sure do feel separate from God.
I think recognizing our oneness will take some time.
But I feel I am moving in the right direction.
At least I eliminated some perversions,
which makes me feel better about myself.

Aaron, it's definitely difficult to accept the dark parts of yourself
when they mentally take you and violently shake you like a ragdoll,
or when it feels like your body is descending into bone-crushing density
and it looks like your flesh is being microwaved.

Turning your will towards the recognition of unity among self, other-self, and Creator is probably the most powerfully effective ways one can deal with catalyst. It's also probably the least distorted action one can take in this density. Living in recognition of this oneness requires a lifetime's work, but the will can be turned towards it at any time.

Do you feel like these "perverted" thoughts come from a place other than self? They may come from negative "outside" influence, but if so, then it might be made possible by your fear and non-acceptance of those possibilities within yourself.

That experience you describe sounds horrible... And nobody deserves that kind of treatment. When I was being manipulated by a negative entity in ways that were energetically uncomfortable (I'm sensitive like you), the big realization that allowed that to stop was that I in no way deserve that treatment. It was an orange ray issue and I was, unbeknownst to my conscious mind, holding the subtle belief that I had done something to deserve that kind of treatment, that the entity causing me the discomfort had the right to do so. That wasn't the case... The entity was simply using its will, and I was not using mine. I realized that I am the Creator and I deserve respect and love. I realized that there is nothing within myself that requires me to be ashamed, no matter how dark or perverted it may seem. All is the Creator and the self is perfect.