key aspects to penetrating the Veil

[Cyan]

From a trilogy of small books I wrote, Book 1 Chapter 1:

Edit: Copypaste removed formatting so editing to return proper formatting:

Chapter1:
Who are you, beautiful creature?

I am going to start with a simple thought. Who
are you? It is perhaps the most used and misused
question in the field. I do not know who you
are, but I can see who you wish to be. I can
never know exactly who you are. I can never know
the position of every neuron and atom in your
body. I can only go to a certain level of
accuracy. In fact, one can never know anything
for certain about a large enough field. You can
only know that you don’t know and at best you
have to take a guess. You can say that if you
are standing next to an atomic bomb when it
explodes you will likely die. Yet you can never
be sure for there are an endless amount of
things that could happen. Kirk might come and
beam you up! That’s the only tribute to Star
Trek in this book. I promise. Yet that is what I
mean, at the moment of explosion there might be
a malfunction and the bomb doesn’t work. The
chance for those things to happen is
infinitesimally small but it is still there.
Same applies to humans and everything else as
well.


When I look at you, I can only estimate what you
wish to be, you always have the choice to be
something else. The only thing that ever has
power over you is yourself. Your past doesn’t
control you, your future doesn’t control you,
your wife, husband, boy/girlfriend, parents,
children, everything. None of these things can
ever force a choice upon you. They can lead you
to believe that you only have certain choices
and of those choices you have to choose the one
with the lesser evil. Most men have been
indoctrinated to think that the extent of
choices you can make are from what other people give you.
That it is your only choice when you
stand in line in MacDonald’s and think weather
to get a Big Mac or a cheeseburger. That is the
basic choice. More complex choices are who do
you wish to be, who do you wish to be with, what
do you value, where do you go.

It is always of great interest to ponder your
past. To ponder what happened when humanity was
in its infancy, such pondering is useful as
well. What happened in the past usually can be
studied and the knowledge gained can be used to
better estimate what might happen in the future.
If you spend a lot of time thinking back to your
own past to some things that hurt you, if you do
it for the simple purpose of wanting to remember
what happened, you might wish to stop for a
while and think about why you are doing it. Do
you truly want to remember an insult someone
said to you a year ago simply to remember the
insult? If you on the other hand wish to do it
so you can better defend, or you can help
someone else or for some other reason then the
study of the past has a new meaning. But even
so, the study of the past should only be done
when it affects who you are or who you wish to
be. If you desire to study the past for the sake
of studying the past then that is more than
commendable. Since that is then what you desire
to do. But to study the past for the sake of the
past even if you dislike it is not something
that is worth the effort if it has no effect on
the present day. Such is same for the future.
They are things that are worth studying, yet
they are things that are very hard for you to
change. It is hard for you to go back in time
and stop Julius Caesar from being assassinated.
While it is not impossible by any stretch, it is
very hard. Yet you can’t change the past by
making a decision in the past, you make a
decision in the present, in the blink of an eye.

Who you are is not what you want and what you
desire, who you are is when you realise that you
are. You are the collection of thousands of
generations of human faults and human
accomplishments, thousands of generations of
Hannibal Lectors and Jesus Christ’s, Harry
Potters and Gandalf’s, Morgan le Fay and Jeanne
D'Arcs. You are built on concepts like ego,
self, outside of self and inside of self. Most
new age movements believe that the ego is
something bad, that to be self centred is an
inherently bad thing. So they go to lengths to
try to not be self centred. Yet nothing is more
damaging to the nature of creation than not to
be self centred. Very existence of the universe
is a self centred act. If our sun would let its
gravity go and release all the matter it has
accumulated it would consume the life on this
fragile planet. If all animals suddenly decided
to stop being self centred and stop killing any
other animal then the only life that would exist
is simple bacteria with a few plants. But like
all life, it lies in the balance between self
centeredness and external centeredness. By the
most common definition in the new age, our sun
is a very self centred object. It slowly turns
hydrogen into heavier elements until it dies and
in its death it releases heavier metals which
other stars can’t consume. If it was nonegoistical
would it not simply release all that
energy for others to consume. In this internal
process that generates its power, this act of
self centeredness it has created life that is
now thinking about it. Does the sun want to
consume everything, no it probably doesn’t. But
does it want to suck everything into it, probably not.
That is what true self
centeredness and true egoism is about.

Ego, in essence means nothing more than "me" in
Latin. Yet somehow in this age of selfempowerment
the word ego has become a curse.
"You egoist", is the equivalent of "You whore"
of ancient times. Yet is not the opposite of an
egoist a whore. Whore gives others pleasure and
fulfilment, often works in very poor conditions
and even in some cases against their own will.
Yet the egoist thinks of herself first and then
of others. Yet if we are working on the
empowerment of the person then is not ego the
most important piece of the puzzle. Humanity is
thinking of all these new truths and existences.
Humanity is on a straight line and tries to
reach the center of the line while we aim for
the center we often overshoot and while doing so
we go through a phase of perfection while we
reach another extreme. It is like standing in a
small rowboat trying to find your balance. You
tend to shift too far from one end to another
while you scramble to avoid falling into the
cold water.

First the Jews were the oppressed throughout
Europe and now they have become the oppressors.
Arabs in ages gone used to oppress their fair
share of the world and now it is they who are
oppressed. Soviet Union had its time of being
the oppressors but it also had its magnificent
period of being on its knees. This same Yin-yang
/ pendulum effect is so clearly visible in how
people now swing to the extremely self
destructive one end from the self destructive
other end, from harming others to harming self.
People strive so long and hard to suppress their
sense of self that even the smallest criticism
will make them explode. I should know this,
I did it as much as many other people, I only did
it for maybe 5 years yet the scars are still
there. So I ask that you understand that this is
not an issue where I might have observed from
the sidelines, I was very much in the fray doing
ego-meditations, having teachers that are good
at crushing your ego and remind you of how
worthless you are but then charge you the money
with a smile on their face. That is why most
people will be very angry when they read this
book if they have been in the new age groups
that are prone to ego-crushing. And a note for
those saying "every religion does it, it’s not
just us" that is very much true. Yet this is not
about other religions, at least not for a long
time yet, what they do with their followers is
not my problem when we do the same thing. Since
I am a healer what happens in the new age groups
effects me tremendously. Most people will be
very angry and will have a very hard time
accepting what I put forth in this book. That
you are the most beautiful thing I have ever
seen. Maybe I am an old man gazing on the beauty
of the people here, or I am a young baby
learning to see and everything is still
beautiful.

The humans I meet have been beating themselves
over the head with a stick for such a long time
about how bad they are and how unworthy they
are, because that is what the community has told
them. That it is the angels, god/goddess(s),
higher self, universe, spiritual guides, inner
spark, left, right, or the box by the door that
is responsible for all the miracles they do and
they have no influence on it. That they are
worthless blobs of energy that some higher
energy has decided to use, for now, and they
must push themselves to the side while the
energy does its thing, omni-sentient. While
you have lived this way for many years, working
constantly on hiding who you are, pushing
yourself away, pushing the pain and the
humiliation away, meditating on oneness, trying
to outdo everyone else in the field in holiness
and oneness and not being self centred and so
on. Once this emotional self punishment that
most healers and spiritual workers put
themselves through has been going on for a
decade or even if it’s only a year, you will
understand how hard it is to let go of it. Let
go of punishing yourself and finally accept that
you are the most beautiful creature in
existence.

It is hard to let go for many reasons, maybe you
don’t want to admit that you are being used,
maybe you don’t want to get up on your feet
again because then you have to stop being
carried around by those feeding you up to be
slaughtered. Maybe it just feels so good that
someone finally likes you, that even if the
person only likes you for a fraction of a second
when they are feeding from your energies, it
still feels so good. There are many reasons not
all that different from the reasons people can’t
get away from abusive relationships, or
governments or religions. That in this world
where so little truly feels good, the best
pleasure is when someone tells you, you have
been a good person, a good boy/girl. That is why
what I say will undoubtedly anger many. It is
hard to let go of rope that burns your hands
when it is the thing that is holding you in the
air, even if the ground is only an inch away. Of
course there are genuine points of disagreement
as well and I have no desire in labelling them
all as this. Yet this is what had to be said,
you can hate this book, you can burn it, you can
even burn me. Once I have written this book I
will have my peace.

I know that the words in this book will travel
for an eternity expanding in all directions at
the speed of light. The existence of the
universe is the best testament to your
existence. If you could have a fast enough way
of transportation and go a light year away from
the earth, and a powerful enough way of
observing you could see what it was like a year
in the past. In a trillion years from now the
light that this book is reflecting will still
travel through space, a glimmer of light amongst
all those other memories. You want to find the
akashic records, then open your eyes and look
around. Everything that ever has happened or
ever will happen in the universe is stored in
the light that it emits, this information and
this light can never be destroyed. That is why
black holes cause such a headache for scientist.
The information (light) that they store can
never vanish, it is still in there in some form.
Perhaps you can one day go to a light molecule
and ask it to tell its story to you. Of all the
places it has been and all the things it has
witnessed. We are surrounded by such beauty,
such unrivalled beauty that it brings a tear to
an old mans eye.

I wrote this about 5 years ago or so.

I generally talk with my higher self daily about what to do. We are both quite uncertain at this point but it seems to tickle us both funny in many ways

Also, second chapter:

Chapter 2:
Who am I, standing in the middle?