Singles / Dating

[Conifer16]

I don't know what 'type' attracts me but I know I've had a strong pull to people and there is no pattern there that is consistent. The force that pulls me to someone could be the energy that two people synergistically create as a result of sharing a 'space' together.To me, seeking a type or trying to fulfill a need becomes stuff of fantasy and disappointment.

I used this analogy recently when explaining what attracts me to others.

I said that every one has a song. This song radiates out and impacts other songs from other people. When I suddenly feel myself attracted to someone it is because our songs have met and melded together creating a harmonizing tune. It is really random as well, the girls don't really follow much of a pattern in their looks. Their energy is just in harmony with my own. Unfortunately I am not yet so good at talking to girls. lol. With the last girl that I felt the harmony of energy with I got a little annoyed. Because like, she just came out of nowhere and hijacked my mind, she is too pretty(unfairly so) and unmade my confidence... and confused my normally amazing smarts :-P.

lol Only managed to make myself look weird and foolish, so this one is going no where.. I wonder what I was supposed to learn from all of this? hmm... Anyway, can't remember who said it here, but I would just like to meet someone who hasn't bought into the trivialities of society and is above it all. This is a bloody fun illusion folks! Keyword illusion. :-)

it is funny sometimes to realize that most people(my parents included) have bought into it all. Money is necessary. We must work. Nothing is free. People aren't good. You will not amount to anything because you are too laze and have unrealistic ideals about reality and will end up homeless because you think everyone is entitled to abundance and getting everything free... I have actually had that last sentence almost verbatim thrown at me by my dad.. lol but hey, I am young and idealistic, so I am supposed to be this way, right :-P plus I am Aquarius. I am supposed to be a little crazy :-P

lol My life is going to go bloody(not british, just like that word because the british are cool. much like bowties and fezes :-P ) amazing. I am going to break out of this poverty cycle my mom and her mom have been in. and will travel the world. pretty sure that I will get to see another star system in person before I die. haha :-)

that turned really random.. XD I will stop here before I write a novel full of random stuff about me and my thoughts.

Have fun,
Conifer18(I am 18 now. lol keep forgetting that..)
Namaste
Adonai Vasu Borragus :-D