02-13-2013, 02:06 PM
Hello Cboynto!
When I was in high school I let my self be pulled into a very dark and scary place. Each day the thought of going to school was terrifying. I let myself be enveloped with fear to a great degree for too long a time. To the point my body could not handle it and kinda "broke". I developed a great anxiety for being around most people. It manifest as my head twitching, hearth starting to race, mouth dry, body becoming weak and also shaky. I had to keep myself together every time I was not moving and people where around.
One day I noticed the thick fear I was living in. I felt it and the depths of it alarmed me, for now I saw this fear as my destroyer. It was in my eyes "Do or Die" for I could not imagine surviving with such a fear. So I did, I did everything that I thought would help me over come it. I tried swimming because I thought it would let me relax and somehow mend this broken body. It did not feel as I expected, though only once, the effect was not what I was searching. And the interaction with people even if brief was enough to leave it alone. I had to keep going though, because I needed a solution "live or die".
I noticed my body getting tense when the fear/anxiety was present. Upon that I started to consciously relax my muscles, shoulders/neck area was the most tense. Breathing consciously was also essential to that. This was/is my road to healing. When I shook off the thick fear, it became a matter of recovery.
Years have passed (5+) and I am living contently in regards to my body. It was not a one day fix and I still bear the scars of it now. But I can be around people once again in a state of calm and the neck twitch thing is not my reality anymore.
I guess my advice would be to try those things that you think/feel would help. How ever silly those ideas may be to you're conscious mind. If you think/feel they could be helpful, do them! I used the word conscious for a reason I see. Be aware of you're self when fear makes itself known and focus on the solutions.
I hope this helps.
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When I was in high school I let my self be pulled into a very dark and scary place. Each day the thought of going to school was terrifying. I let myself be enveloped with fear to a great degree for too long a time. To the point my body could not handle it and kinda "broke". I developed a great anxiety for being around most people. It manifest as my head twitching, hearth starting to race, mouth dry, body becoming weak and also shaky. I had to keep myself together every time I was not moving and people where around.
One day I noticed the thick fear I was living in. I felt it and the depths of it alarmed me, for now I saw this fear as my destroyer. It was in my eyes "Do or Die" for I could not imagine surviving with such a fear. So I did, I did everything that I thought would help me over come it. I tried swimming because I thought it would let me relax and somehow mend this broken body. It did not feel as I expected, though only once, the effect was not what I was searching. And the interaction with people even if brief was enough to leave it alone. I had to keep going though, because I needed a solution "live or die".
I noticed my body getting tense when the fear/anxiety was present. Upon that I started to consciously relax my muscles, shoulders/neck area was the most tense. Breathing consciously was also essential to that. This was/is my road to healing. When I shook off the thick fear, it became a matter of recovery.
Years have passed (5+) and I am living contently in regards to my body. It was not a one day fix and I still bear the scars of it now. But I can be around people once again in a state of calm and the neck twitch thing is not my reality anymore.
I guess my advice would be to try those things that you think/feel would help. How ever silly those ideas may be to you're conscious mind. If you think/feel they could be helpful, do them! I used the word conscious for a reason I see. Be aware of you're self when fear makes itself known and focus on the solutions.
I hope this helps.
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