Well, I've been having a lot of dreams for the past three weeks.
I had one disturbing one last night. I was dreaming that I saw a large pulsating vein on my forehead that I hadn't noticed before. I looked at it closer and realized it was a large worm probably as thick as a triple aaa battery that was as lengthy as a pencil. I tried hold it with my fingers from the outside but to my horror it felt me attempting to hold it in place and it slithered back into my skull through my ear. There was no pain.
I believe this is related to my lifelong struggle with body dismorphic disorder/ lack of self love. I've been much better about it and only get depressed once a month (as opposed to weekly a few years ago, or daily about a decade ago) but it's pretty stubborn. The only thing else that I changed up is I've been playing with having a quartz pyramid underneath me for thirty minutes and setting up quartz stars on a quartz crystal cluster that I programmed to help me contact my higher self. (a cluster that my roommate calls the "dream catcher" b/c when I put it by his bedside he has crazy dreams and now he wants a cluster as well).
I believe the parasite is my bdd beliefs and it represents that it is deep into my subconscious...I am just wondering if there is a message that I did not already know :/.
Edit: I suppose it's also possible that the dream is a message that there is a newer unwanted thought form on me (because I did a lot of energy work with other healers three months ago who said I did not appear to have any then, except for a small one probably through working in such close contact with drug addicts...but who knows I don't claim to know anything really about this field)...not sure how to figure that stuff out for myself...since my energy/mood has always been up and down. I have been volunteering at the homeless shelter every week and you do see addicts... The answer probably still lies within me rather than "cleaning" an unwanted thought form, because we are all one, so if it is a thought form it is on me because of some imbalance, and that leads me back to bdd haha.
I had one disturbing one last night. I was dreaming that I saw a large pulsating vein on my forehead that I hadn't noticed before. I looked at it closer and realized it was a large worm probably as thick as a triple aaa battery that was as lengthy as a pencil. I tried hold it with my fingers from the outside but to my horror it felt me attempting to hold it in place and it slithered back into my skull through my ear. There was no pain.
I believe this is related to my lifelong struggle with body dismorphic disorder/ lack of self love. I've been much better about it and only get depressed once a month (as opposed to weekly a few years ago, or daily about a decade ago) but it's pretty stubborn. The only thing else that I changed up is I've been playing with having a quartz pyramid underneath me for thirty minutes and setting up quartz stars on a quartz crystal cluster that I programmed to help me contact my higher self. (a cluster that my roommate calls the "dream catcher" b/c when I put it by his bedside he has crazy dreams and now he wants a cluster as well).
I believe the parasite is my bdd beliefs and it represents that it is deep into my subconscious...I am just wondering if there is a message that I did not already know :/.
Edit: I suppose it's also possible that the dream is a message that there is a newer unwanted thought form on me (because I did a lot of energy work with other healers three months ago who said I did not appear to have any then, except for a small one probably through working in such close contact with drug addicts...but who knows I don't claim to know anything really about this field)...not sure how to figure that stuff out for myself...since my energy/mood has always been up and down. I have been volunteering at the homeless shelter every week and you do see addicts... The answer probably still lies within me rather than "cleaning" an unwanted thought form, because we are all one, so if it is a thought form it is on me because of some imbalance, and that leads me back to bdd haha.
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