Cognitive Dissonance and Selective Compassion

[Plenum]

Right now, I have another issue that continues to elude me. It's not something I wish to share publicly, but let's just say it's something I've been struggling with for a very long time.

On the surface, I truly believe I'm ready to let go of it. I've meditated on this countless times...done visualizations, cleared blockages, etc. I've even tried totally letting it go and accepting it. Yet it stays stuck.

I realize that I'm making it difficult to get any helpful suggestions on my particular stuck issue, and that's ok. What I'm really trying to understand is the dynamic. I see it in sick people and religious people, and, in a different way, in myself as well. I'm trying to understand the nature of it.

Monica, from what I've read, pre-life programming (even for Wanderers) involves maybe a whole lifetime of experience around a central one or two issues. These lessons are usually quite a hurdle for the individual, and are in no ways easy to overcome.

most of us have inklings of what these one or two lessons might be; but the fact that it is allocated 50-90 years of incarnate experience to work through shows that:

1) it is not a superficial lesson

and

2) that when we learn it, we want to learn it for good, and have it really sink down into our psyche, change who we are.

so by all means, we each struggle with our own 'cross' and burden, a blockage that seemingly does not yield to all the most exhaustive methods and approaches.

but it is by no means arbitrary and callous; there is a certain design to each life.

I'm sure I've just restated platitudes that you've read in countless books; but that's all I have to offer just now

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I really feel for your situation; I can see how hard you are trying to work with it; and like others recently, you've made it a public seeking, and so you've invoked the help of others now. (not all in the physical form lol).

I see how much compassion you have; I see the wisdom you apply to your everyday experience.

please forgive me if I've made too many presumptions and overstepped the mark into personal territory

if I may add one last thing; there are some things the intellectual mind cannot know for certain; (the intellect is just surface mind anyway : d). But direct experience of the light of the spirit can supply that lack.