In my past "Earthly" life (of which I have been shown that I've only had one recently), I was a red-headed girl in Spain in around the 1600's, during the period of the Inquisition. The veil was thinner for me in that life, and I naturally seemed to know a lot about herbs, faith-healing, and sometimes some future knowledge (more like intuited knowledge based on observations). After it became known that I was healing a few of the people in the town that I lived, I was quickly labeled a witch. However, instead of persecution, my parents opted for excommunication and moved far away from civilization.
My parents were so distraught that something which seemed so good was labeled so evil. Although there were many times after we moved that they attempted to coerce me to be more "normal," I was mostly so upset that I'd hurt my family so bad, and I blamed myself for causing them so much harm.
One day soon thereafter, when I went to the lake near where we had moved, I walked into the lake, and I just knew that I could breathe underwater. So I walked into the water there, continuing to breathe for awhile, then let my self-disappointment take over and just stopped the "magic" which let me breathe underwater. So I drowned myself.
On review of my life, I could see that it truly hurt my parents more that after they were kicked out of the church and the town of people that they loved, they then lost their daughter because of me as well. It took a lot of healing for me to forgive myself for what I'd done to them, and I recognized the karmic bondage that I'd created.
So, I then spent some time as a creation in a world surrounded by light as a pink rounded-gumby looking creature, flying around with my blue friend whom I'd been in a teacher/student relationship between densities during a previous incarnation.
My purpose of the 3D incarnation was to come here to see the progress of humanity at that time. I was to view how well people accepted or rejected that which was slightly out of their normalcy. Therefore, I decided to return nearer to the harvest, for the purposes of resolving my karmic burden to my parents. They agreed to take on a slightly open-minded but fundamentalist mindset, and my brother (with his own lessons to be learned from the family) agreed to join 11.5 years after.
Again, I was to enter as a non-conformant member of society (gay and highly spiritual). However, I had to experience the severe depression and rejection (even before coming out), as well as perceived rejection by God (who continually told me otherwise), and a flat out rejection of myself. This depression and rejection were to come to 3 peaks in which suicide was attempted, then rejected at the last minute, by realizations of the selfishness behind it.
After a first initiation moment (of MANY), I no longer feared death. I began to notice an extremely quick ability to learn Spanish, herb-healing, and other ancient healing arts. This began to occur as my father was beginning to experience abnormalities that doctors could not explain or cure (things like fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, calcifications, etc.). Despite that I could provide help to numerous people, he would deny any help from me. This served as a catalyst about the free-will behind healing. It lead me to learn more about karma, spirituality, and eventually the reconciliation of my faith with the others (resolution of paradoxes), and in reincarnation. I then "saw" her. I began seeing the little red-head in flashes. Then viewing glimpses of the life before. I then began to dream about events of that incarnation, and about life between incarnations.
I have seen glimpses of earlier ones, but they are not here, and do not follow the same rules per se. I know that I have spent some time as a slave before, and during that time, I wrongly fantasized about killing "an" enslaver of my friends and family. For that I believe that I've been in negative places before, but I'm unsure, because it seemed to have fallen away long before this incarnation, despite that I seem to understand and read those of a negative polarity as easily as positive polarity. My higher-self reminds me of the parable of the lost son.
Then, I found Edgar Cayce, and then the LOO, and it all seems to make sense to me now.
My parents were so distraught that something which seemed so good was labeled so evil. Although there were many times after we moved that they attempted to coerce me to be more "normal," I was mostly so upset that I'd hurt my family so bad, and I blamed myself for causing them so much harm.
One day soon thereafter, when I went to the lake near where we had moved, I walked into the lake, and I just knew that I could breathe underwater. So I walked into the water there, continuing to breathe for awhile, then let my self-disappointment take over and just stopped the "magic" which let me breathe underwater. So I drowned myself.
On review of my life, I could see that it truly hurt my parents more that after they were kicked out of the church and the town of people that they loved, they then lost their daughter because of me as well. It took a lot of healing for me to forgive myself for what I'd done to them, and I recognized the karmic bondage that I'd created.
So, I then spent some time as a creation in a world surrounded by light as a pink rounded-gumby looking creature, flying around with my blue friend whom I'd been in a teacher/student relationship between densities during a previous incarnation.
My purpose of the 3D incarnation was to come here to see the progress of humanity at that time. I was to view how well people accepted or rejected that which was slightly out of their normalcy. Therefore, I decided to return nearer to the harvest, for the purposes of resolving my karmic burden to my parents. They agreed to take on a slightly open-minded but fundamentalist mindset, and my brother (with his own lessons to be learned from the family) agreed to join 11.5 years after.
Again, I was to enter as a non-conformant member of society (gay and highly spiritual). However, I had to experience the severe depression and rejection (even before coming out), as well as perceived rejection by God (who continually told me otherwise), and a flat out rejection of myself. This depression and rejection were to come to 3 peaks in which suicide was attempted, then rejected at the last minute, by realizations of the selfishness behind it.
After a first initiation moment (of MANY), I no longer feared death. I began to notice an extremely quick ability to learn Spanish, herb-healing, and other ancient healing arts. This began to occur as my father was beginning to experience abnormalities that doctors could not explain or cure (things like fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, calcifications, etc.). Despite that I could provide help to numerous people, he would deny any help from me. This served as a catalyst about the free-will behind healing. It lead me to learn more about karma, spirituality, and eventually the reconciliation of my faith with the others (resolution of paradoxes), and in reincarnation. I then "saw" her. I began seeing the little red-head in flashes. Then viewing glimpses of the life before. I then began to dream about events of that incarnation, and about life between incarnations.
I have seen glimpses of earlier ones, but they are not here, and do not follow the same rules per se. I know that I have spent some time as a slave before, and during that time, I wrongly fantasized about killing "an" enslaver of my friends and family. For that I believe that I've been in negative places before, but I'm unsure, because it seemed to have fallen away long before this incarnation, despite that I seem to understand and read those of a negative polarity as easily as positive polarity. My higher-self reminds me of the parable of the lost son.
Then, I found Edgar Cayce, and then the LOO, and it all seems to make sense to me now.
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