02-23-2013, 10:53 PM
I've had constant situations my whole life in which a sudden and intense memory of something that I've done (usually benign). During that time, I'm given the memory and an intense and debilitating feeling of stupidity and regret and hatred for what I've done. Usually these things are so benign and mundane that a typical person would laugh at it as being awkward (e.g. failing to tell a joke correctly). Nonetheless, these have been getting stronger, more intense, and I've started beating the table or seat and screaming uncontrollably when they are happening. I then have to explain to people that I'm okay, and try to explain it away.
These memories can come from any time in my life, and sometimes can repeat, even if I've forgiven myself for whatever tiny thing it may be.
The point is, I'm trying to determine if these are psychic attacks too. I'm left with little or no energy now. I have no animosity toward the entities that are doing it, as even before discovering the LOO, I've "loved and forgiven the Devil." I'm curious if this is a psychic attack that I'm giving myself, and if this is possible. There are so many questions that I have regarding it, and I just don't know exactly what or who to ask.
These memories can come from any time in my life, and sometimes can repeat, even if I've forgiven myself for whatever tiny thing it may be.
The point is, I'm trying to determine if these are psychic attacks too. I'm left with little or no energy now. I have no animosity toward the entities that are doing it, as even before discovering the LOO, I've "loved and forgiven the Devil." I'm curious if this is a psychic attack that I'm giving myself, and if this is possible. There are so many questions that I have regarding it, and I just don't know exactly what or who to ask.