2001.12.23 No one can walk a totally pure path of light

[We are God]

There must be some kind of balance perhaps, between accepting imperfections and short-comings, and yet always striving to walk the purest path...?

Accepting your imperfections and short-comings is the purest path, my friend.

I have had ideas of becoming someone who is able to continuously remain in a state of mindfulness, a person that does not experience anger, is unconditionally accepting and who sees the Self in All. I have had trouble dealing with the fact that, I have not become this being and I seem unable to maintain this state of, what I perceive, as balance. This often has led me to feel angry towards myself...wondering how, deep down, I can feel so capable of achieving this state of balance , yet failing to manifest such a state on a consistent basis and often experiencing, what I perceive as, the complete polar opposite: anger and hate towards others and myself "why can't I be this way?"

I can relate to what you are saying here, brother. It's been a big catalyst for me too, to perceive anger towards others, and disharmony within myself when that happens. I've been feeling like I am forced to deal with negativity against my own free will, cause I didn't want to experience negativity. And I've been very angry at the Creator for that.

Anger in itself is not a bad thing - it exists for a reason. It is how you make use of it that determines its quality. While it isn't possible to give one piece of advice for all situations, I would suggest considering meditating upon the anger just as you did when you were having difficulties at your job.

I have grown to love anger - if my body decides to react to a situation in such a way, then it is an opportunity to better know myself, you know?