Regression session

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Then we came to the part where Higher Self enters to answer the questions. I don't know who or what that thing was, but it was not the Higher Self I have experienced this far. There was no love and no intimate relationship. That thing looked down at me, and I was still very conscious. I had almost no own thoughts at that point, and was channeling this thing's thoughts. I spoke of myself in "she" form. It could also have been a shadow part of myself, I don't know. Whatever or whoever it was, it was not the Higher Self that I've come to know. That thing was not trying to hurt me or misslead me, I felt it very clear. It was pointing into the direction that I had to take which is love, but whatever it was, it was cold and clever.

That's mentioned in Dolores Cannons books also... during the sessions, the HS talks about you in the 3rd form and it comes across as cold and impersonal.

Meerie, do you remember when we had this discussion about whether it was my Higher Self or not, speaking during that regression session that I had almost 2 years? I think that I now understand what happened!

What was evoked is the so called "magical personality". This personality is evoked in small degrees or percentages as the self becomes more adept, as I understand it:

Questioner: Now in the invocation of the magical personality it is not necessarily effective for the neophyte. Is there a point at which there is a definite quantum change and that then the magical personality does reside in the neophyte, or can it be done in small degrees or percentages of magical personality as the neophyte becomes more adept?

Ra: I am Ra. The latter is correct.

At that time, when I was doing this regression, almost 2 years ago, there were components that wasn't developed in me, because "when the magical personality is properly and efficaciously invoked the self has invoked its Higher Self." (Ra, 75.36)

The magical personality has three aspects which is to be developed in order to develop the basic tool of the adept, its self:

The three aspects of the magical personality, power, love, and wisdom, are so called in order that attention be paid to each aspect in developing the basic tool of the adept; that is, its self.

At that time, I have not yet developed love. The aspect of power was also not developed as to have a purpose. Power is sought in order to *serve*:

The three aspects are given that the neophyte not abuse the tools of its trade but rather approach those tools balanced in the center of love and wisdom and thus seeking power in order to serve.

Or as Ra said in 73.11:

In the magical personality desire, will, and polarity are the keys.

I lacked, at that time, love and polarity/power to serve, and thus, what was evoked was a certain degree or percentage of the magical personality. What was evoked, as I already felt and sensed and was almost convinced at the time I experienced this meeting with this being, was NOT my Higher Self, but the magical personality lacking aspects that are quite central and important, i.e. love and polarity...

*phew* it feels good for the moment to have solved this riddle, although I might be wrong in this...