I spent most of my teen years depressed, which simply went away one day after hitting rock-bottom. How? Because I realized happiness is a choice that comes from within! All the emotions you feel are simply perspectives that you choose to focus on..and on, and on. There's nothing that differentiates a good day from a bad day except the thoughts that dig you deeper and deeper into that hole.
As TheEternal said, you're searching for validity outside of yourself. It's an absorbent attitude as you want the external to please you, and there are also elements of not being in control (not getting what you want). Not being judgmental at all, just explaining how all of this works. Nothing other than yourself will bring you true happiness. Everyone has certain needs, but the main point is that you're asking for happiness to be given to you, yet what you're being asked to do is embody radiance. Life is absurd, and if you truly do want to release control and stop grasping, you'll get to a point where you can't help but laugh at it all. It's the first major step towards beingness.
Ultimately, the greater realization is that it isn't about us; we're here for others. When we realize this first, we're able to be more dependable in serving each other, then all our needs can be met. If you're bored, you could try volunteering and helping in your community. There are plenty of people that need help. Good luck!
As TheEternal said, you're searching for validity outside of yourself. It's an absorbent attitude as you want the external to please you, and there are also elements of not being in control (not getting what you want). Not being judgmental at all, just explaining how all of this works. Nothing other than yourself will bring you true happiness. Everyone has certain needs, but the main point is that you're asking for happiness to be given to you, yet what you're being asked to do is embody radiance. Life is absurd, and if you truly do want to release control and stop grasping, you'll get to a point where you can't help but laugh at it all. It's the first major step towards beingness.
Ultimately, the greater realization is that it isn't about us; we're here for others. When we realize this first, we're able to be more dependable in serving each other, then all our needs can be met. If you're bored, you could try volunteering and helping in your community. There are plenty of people that need help. Good luck!