I have a "problem". I would appreciate some insight.

[Jeremy]

Yea I think many of us went through the stage that you're going through. Once becoming exposed to such truth, the aspirations of lifting the veil or all these grandoise ideas of enlightenmet all become quite the temptation until you come to the realization like you have that this is not the way it works. You then become a tad disillusioned over this fact, like you have, fall off the wagon a bit until you find that its just one of many spiritual steps one must make in this journey.

You have come to the realization that understanding is not what we are here for so with that step accomplished, simply being within the moment, radiating love and light, accepting/loving yourself along with other selves is all you really need to do.

You will never be rejected by anyone here brother. This fear that you have indicates an imbalance in your lower levels. Truly loving and accepting yourself seems to me to be a good place to start from here though only you can make that decision.

Just remember that you can never say too much to us. We are all oddballs according to this silly illusion called society therefore we can be the family where you can be yourself so that you can become comfortable enough in the future to be that same person around all other selves.