2001.12.23 No one can walk a totally pure path of light

[Steppingfeet]

Ankh, in your first post Q'uo differentiates between being "right" and being "loving". While both concepts,to love and to be right, have a host of variant meanings with a great deal of overlap between the two, I nevertheless find it a helpful distinction to make.

Doing so helps orient my own vision away from the need for accurate or correct perception that - through analysis, classification, naming, and defining - often contributes to the illusion of separation. And re-orients the vision in the direction of that love which melts the boundaries. That love which sees the surface differences but embraces the one being shining through all outer appearances, wildly distinct and separate though things may seem to be.

I needed reminded of that thought. Thank you for posting, dear Ankh. : )

In response to the experience of Ankh, Jeremy, and others regarding not fully living what one knows is possible and true, an experience I certainly share, I think it is most helpful to remove judgment when viewing the self.

You see such and such distortion. You see energy blockage. You see confusion. You see lack of full embodiment of your highest spiritual aspirations. You see pain in you. You see lack of love in you. You see negative emotions and non-enlightenment running through your experience.

No matter how seemingly wrong is your experience by your standard's or the group's standards, it is still... "okay". Those energies - as blocked, tangled, confused, wayward, and undisciplined as they may be - have their time, and their purpose, and their function.

Those energies can be lifted up and transformed, of course, through the disciplines of the personality, through (like Jeremy was saying) meditative awareness, through knowing, through accepting, through balancing. Those energies can consume less of the attention and identity as the distortions fall away, and the outer identity more perfectly merges with the inner. But the existence of distortions in the life experience is not indicative of failure, or spiritual wrongness.

Rather, they simply help highlight for you where the work needs doing, where there is good material to catalyze spiritual evolution. And they are functional only insofar as they turn your attention to the one.

I think we all have the capacity to gain some "distance" from our catalyst. To sort of step back and simply witness the outer play of self with eyes that love but do not judge. Eyes that see but do not reject. I think we can develop an awareness that, like the mirror mind, allows those "apparent" distortions of self to be. Accepting those distortions as they are because *you* are greater than those distortions, and this knowing is in your awareness.

You rest in that balanced awareness between, key word, "apparent" distortions and total perfection.

That perfection is knowable, and it's not through the beating of the self into a desired outer configuration that the perfection is realized, but through seeing that no matter what you do in life and how lost you may seem to be, the self is *already* perfect, apparent distortions included.

This is knowable, as I think Jeremy was getting at, through bringing more and more conscious awareness into your experience, and keeping that awareness locked onto the present moment.

Love you all.