2001.12.23 No one can walk a totally pure path of light

[Ankh]

Thank you for your beautiful thoughts, GLB, and those beautiful Ra quotes. /

I've been pretty down these last days. There has been a lot of stuff from the past that has been floating up to the surface of my conscious mind, which weighted tons. These things knocked me out almost completely, leaving me in a dark place with almost no energy. But for the first time I felt gratitude for these things. I feel gratitude that I nevertheless had *time and opportunity* to work with these things. Not many on this planet have this time or opportunity to contemplate the Law of One, or to work in consciousness. But I do. Thank you. I feel gratitude that I have the best material on this planet (if not the whole Universe), which showing the direction to the light and love. Thank you. I feel gratitude for a most beautiful family and the most beautiful friends, both seen and unseen, who are here with me, and who are showing that I am not alone... Thank you.

But what I realized is that I didn't judge myself this time, for not being able to serve prefectly, or not being able to radiate love or light, or whatever other perceived mistakes. *That all was well*.

I feel gratitude for negativity and dark places now, instead of as before, getting angry at the Creator for putting me through situations like that. It is "ok" to not walk anywhere... It is equally important to just sit down and just breath (and to contemplate the Law of One :p).

I don't know how I got to this place of this gratitude, but I am/was there...!