homesickness and pain

[xise]

... - what the hell am I doing here really? I have nothing to offer to this world...

Dear Ankh, I have done some very heinous things in my life and I am one of the most depressive and negative people someone might ever meet, if they get close to me. I am working on altering the latter and creating a more happy destiny, for myself and others around me. But to stick to what I am trying to say, i.e., I really have no moral footing to point out this quote to you. However, I thought I should do so, since you are talking about what necessarily does your presence serve on the planet.

I am sure this is again one of those quotes, of which you are greatly familiar. Yet, here goes --

65.12 Questioner: Then each of the Wanderers here acts as a function of the biases he has developed in any way he sees fit to communicate or simply be in his polarity to aid the total consciousness of the planet. Is there any physical way in which he aids, perhaps by his vibrations somehow just adding to the planet just as electrical polarity or charging a battery? Does that also aid the planet, just the physical presence of the Wanderers?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct and the mechanism is precisely as you state. We intended this meaning in the second portion of our previous answer.

You may, at this time, note that as with any entities, each Wanderer has its unique abilities, biases, and specialties so that from each portion of each density represented among the Wanderers comes an array of pre-incarnative talents which then may be expressed upon this plane which you now experience so that each Wanderer, in offering itself before incarnation, has some special service to offer in addition to the doubling effect of planetary love and light and the basic function of serving as beacon or shepherd.

Thus there are those of fifth density whose abilities to express wisdom are great. There are fourth- and sixth-density Wanderers whose ability to serve as, shall we say, passive radiators or broadcasters of love and love/light are immense. There are many others whose talents brought into this density are quite varied.

Thus Wanderers have three basic functions once the forgetting is penetrated, the first two being basic, the tertiary one being unique to that particular mind/body/spirit complex.

We may note at this point while you ponder the possibility/probability vortices that although you have many, many items which cause distress and thus offer seeking and service opportunities, there is always one container in that store of peace, love, light, and joy. This vortex may be very small, but to turn one’s back upon it is to forget the infinite possibilities of the present moment. Could your planet polarize towards harmony in one fine, strong moment of inspiration? Yes, my friends. It is not probable; but it is ever possible.

I do not think I need to add any more remarks.

This passive radiator part I have personal experiences with: at least three coworkers have told me that my presence in the office or court brings about this calming energy. This started to occur in late 2012.

I feel like my body is made of energy, and when there is nearby inharmonious energy then I start to filter it. Sometimes I don't want because the negativity is so great - I can wall myself off, but I feel closed. Instead I try to accept the energy and the draw energy in from my crown and out through the souls of my feet. This seems to help immensely.