Life Cycles

[GentleReckoning]

Unfortunately, there's too many pieces of my puzzle that don't fit yet.

And I just finished my manic/depressive/schizophrenic break from reality. Gosh darn I'm glad mine only lasted a couple months. There was always the thought that it would be nice to completely let go as I would enjoy giving up all 'control' in my life, but in the end I there was always 'an out' out of all of the deepest delusional/depressive pits that I created for myself. As many recurring dreams that I had had as a child (prophetic?) occurred IRL during this time period I really don't know what to think about it yet. In the end I felt almost like a tourist exploring unfamiliar territory.

Right now, I'm just comfortable being nothing, playing video games. Doing what I can with what I have where I'm at.

I'm living with my parents, and they feel that everything about my spirituality is from the devil. Because of this I've opted to not do anything that my parents would be uncomfortable with. I'm content to simply live, work, and balance through life experiences. Once I've paid off all of my debt (hopefully in a year!), I'm going to simply move to wherever I want to and ease myself into a much more sacred life.