03-11-2010, 06:10 PM
I don't know what it is with the "children thing." I never wanted kids. Ever. I don't even like being around children in most cases. Even when I was a child I hated the fact that I had a childhood mind. I knew it wasn't complete and it frustrated me having to learn so many things over again. I would get mad at myself for acting childish instead of realizing it was a natural part of the growth process. I would get mad at other children because I didn't see why they were so preoccupied with silly things when there were important issues to be explored. I clearly remember being 5-years-old and sitting out on our porch swing for hours, just contemplating death and what happened after you die. I did stuff like that all the time. It kind of freaked my parents out.
Over all, child rearing just isn't an urge that I have at all. For a while I said I wanted kids just because it seemed like that was what happy people did. They grew up, got jobs, got married and had kids. But once I got married I started really freaking out because I just couldn't fathom being able to raise a child. I guess I feel like it would distract me from the somewhat intensive work I have to do here. All the time and money and attention that has to be invested...I feel like I've just now found out what I'm supposed to be doing here and having to raise a child on top of it all would probably make me go insane. I thank God that my husband is okay with not having kids, because I dread the thought of it so much...that probably sounds awful, but I can't even conceive wanting to have a child.
As for the DNA, I can see how it could apply to my DNA having 4th density properties, but how would that help the rest of the world unless I had kids? Is having that DNA what helps wanderers and such raise planetary vibrations just by being here?
Over all, child rearing just isn't an urge that I have at all. For a while I said I wanted kids just because it seemed like that was what happy people did. They grew up, got jobs, got married and had kids. But once I got married I started really freaking out because I just couldn't fathom being able to raise a child. I guess I feel like it would distract me from the somewhat intensive work I have to do here. All the time and money and attention that has to be invested...I feel like I've just now found out what I'm supposed to be doing here and having to raise a child on top of it all would probably make me go insane. I thank God that my husband is okay with not having kids, because I dread the thought of it so much...that probably sounds awful, but I can't even conceive wanting to have a child.
As for the DNA, I can see how it could apply to my DNA having 4th density properties, but how would that help the rest of the world unless I had kids? Is having that DNA what helps wanderers and such raise planetary vibrations just by being here?