Viewing the Totality of the Past without any Pain?

[Plenum]

I am guessing that if one has Totally Forgiven one's past, accepted everything that was done, forgiven all the actors that were involved, the end result would be someone who could gaze on any incident, no matter how seemingly embarassing or heinous, and view it with non-reactivity; the love and the light having been distilled from every experience.

one can but paint this as an ideal, as I am not sure it is entirely achievable.

I was triggered into this line of thinking because I was scanning Carla's Living the Law of One pdf. In it, she discloses how she was attacked as a 4 year old by a group of boys twice her age, and it was both violent and sexual. And this level of frankness ... it is not the most common.

and then I thought, I had the curious experience of being forced to eat a worm as a child because 2 older kids thought it would be amusing to see another kid doing this. And this was not only humiliating for the act itself, but then they spread stories about how 'plenum likes to eat worms' lol. And I can relate it now, with time at a distance, but it was seriously damaging to self-confidence and self-worth at the time.

and I am sure most of us have been brutalised by uncaring acts by others.

how much of this can we forgive and accept?

and how much do we think is unforgiveable, and absolutely unacceptable, in any possible way, and the grudge much be held to the end of this lifetime?

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I should note, too, that the forgiveness and acceptance also applies to the 'brutalising acts' that we ourselves committed; and what we are able to accept and forgive, and what we are not able to accept and forgive. Thereby withoutholding forgiveness from ourselves.

and also second note; all forgiveness boils down to self-forgiveness; as the actors and parties involved may be long gone, and it is only us holding onto the memories of things past.

peace, plenum