The Dream Thread

[Brittany]

I had an interesting dream last night. I was downtown somewhere and I suddenly became lucid. I was thrilled that I was able to maintain the dream environment without starting to wake up, as often happens. I then decided to have some fun and walked up to a mirror, deciding I would try changing my appearance. I tried to make myself look like a man, but was only partially successful. I succeeded in making myself look taller and shortened my hair, but I still looked pretty feminine. I then tried to create the environment that would be behind the next door, and that was only marginally successful as well.

The lucidity began to fade, and I was in an airport and ran into a girl who was being extremely rude to me. Seeing how I was in a dream I decided to be more vocal than I would in real life, and began expressing to her my dissatisfaction with her behavior. This caused her to become even more abhorrent in her behavior, and she seemed to be going out of her way to annoy/hurt me in any way she possibly could. For most of this I remembered I was dreaming, but then my husband came up and revealed, with no remorse, that he had been sleeping with her, and I lost it. I got extremely angry and started screaming and acting like a little kid. My mom came in and started making fun of me, and my husband and my mom were just sitting there laughing at me and talking about how stupid I was.

I went into such a rage that I was out in the hallway screaming and hitting things, totally out of control. I think my dad picked me up and carried me out of the area, and at some point I wound up either being placed in or going into a very dark closet. I regained some of my lucidity at this point and, seeing how the darkness frightened me a bit, I decided to fall back into it and let it saturate me until I was one with the darkness. I then woke up.