Fear

[Plenum]

upon further inquiry, Firewind, it would appear that most fears originate from the orange ray energy centre.

yes, I have some further thoughts on this plenum, if I may? yes, go ahead, feel free to speak plenum.

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umm, I think that fear, like love, has many aspects and permutations. We can speak of different 'kinds of fear' as well as different aspects or 'purities' of love. The particular type of fear that I spoke of above that relates to the orange ray energy centre takes on a particular type of manifestion, I believe, or has done so in my case anyway.

I sort of delved down deep into this 'fear', and it is the kind of fear that creates 'nightmare scenarios or situations' for the self ... almost creating a living worst-case scenario for one's reality. It is the imagination being misapplied to find the worst possible outcomes for any situation; a disempowerment of the self, an invalid actor, someone who 'screws up', says the wrong thing, fumbles and drops the ball. Is inept basically. A personal power outage in other words.

I traced back my earliest memory of this 'orange ray fear' and found that it was activated in my first year of high school; I am guessing around age 12 or 13, maybe corresponding to the onset of puberty. Of course, I had 'known' fear before that age; but that 'fear' was confined to physically dangerous situations, where I had to be careful to protect the body from harm. That is a kind of 'natural' fear; a protective fear, a fear founded for a good reason.

but this orange ray fear of which I speak is one where the self is seen as inadequate for the situation (any situation) and so imagines the worst outcome possible in any situation. It creates a nightmare reality, quite literally; one always fearing the worst, of making that HUGE mistake embarassing oneself no-end.

anyway, this 'nighmare generator' of realities has been present in my life to varying degrees; acting with greater intensity at some times, and less at others. But I believe that is the root cause; and further investigations will show if I have disabled/balanced this orange ray blockage.

thanks for listening, and I know that you are not a regular to the forums Firewind, but this seemed a good place to share my investigations and where they have lead me.

thanks again for bringing up the topic, and stirring up my thoughts on this matter.

much love,

plenum