06-30-2013, 05:16 PM
I went through a traumatizing experience during my stint in call centers. I started out doing tech support for Dell at a third party call center which was ok at the time. Then I moved to customer support for a large enterprise level software backup company. I basically verified coverage then sent them to their appropriate department for tech support.
At this point though I would admit that our drinking had become out of control also so the combination of constantly being hung over plus this life force being sucked out of me while being in cubicle hell caused an eventual crash. I gained about 80lbs in 1.5 years and eventually was fired. At this point, I started meeting with a psychologist whom I still go to maybe once a year just to catch up as he's such a fascinating person to talk to.
I remember how I hated the world for what it was. How people were and how they lived their lives. I was full of resentment towards humanity for what it had become. I still, at this point, valued materialism to a point and always wanted a new mustang. He said bluntly "but why? Its just a car". At that point which was probably 8-10 years ago, I didn't understand but when I think about all the little blunt quips he muttered as I stared blankly back at him completely drained of all life, I can now see what a wonderful teacher he had become.
Wow that was one helluva tangent. Anyways, the main point I was getting to is that a traumatizing job can most certainly be outside of those few listed. It can include those mundane jobs that provide a service only to line the pockets of investors also. I know some may enjoy the cubicle life as I know there are some very rewarding careers that are confined to such but for me, I had to be moving. At the time I chose X-Ray, I almost changed and went to wildlife biology which was my true passion. Looking back, I'm so glad I didn't as though the reason I thought it was my true love was because I was running away from the human interaction that I so much needed to learn the lessons of love and acceptance towards others with whom I fought so fiercely to deflect.
At this point though I would admit that our drinking had become out of control also so the combination of constantly being hung over plus this life force being sucked out of me while being in cubicle hell caused an eventual crash. I gained about 80lbs in 1.5 years and eventually was fired. At this point, I started meeting with a psychologist whom I still go to maybe once a year just to catch up as he's such a fascinating person to talk to.
I remember how I hated the world for what it was. How people were and how they lived their lives. I was full of resentment towards humanity for what it had become. I still, at this point, valued materialism to a point and always wanted a new mustang. He said bluntly "but why? Its just a car". At that point which was probably 8-10 years ago, I didn't understand but when I think about all the little blunt quips he muttered as I stared blankly back at him completely drained of all life, I can now see what a wonderful teacher he had become.
Wow that was one helluva tangent. Anyways, the main point I was getting to is that a traumatizing job can most certainly be outside of those few listed. It can include those mundane jobs that provide a service only to line the pockets of investors also. I know some may enjoy the cubicle life as I know there are some very rewarding careers that are confined to such but for me, I had to be moving. At the time I chose X-Ray, I almost changed and went to wildlife biology which was my true passion. Looking back, I'm so glad I didn't as though the reason I thought it was my true love was because I was running away from the human interaction that I so much needed to learn the lessons of love and acceptance towards others with whom I fought so fiercely to deflect.
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