03-19-2010, 11:10 AM
(03-18-2010, 09:41 PM)Questioner Wrote: If I could have one definite spiritual experience, it would be to get a good explanation of why I have these afflictions and what I'm supposed to do about them for my evolution. Is this plan A or plan B? Is there some type of insight that would make me free of these problems? Or is the whole point that they limit what I can do, so I'm required to make a more explicit choice of faith vs. despair as the fundamental precondition of this lifetime? Is there something of karma to be repaid? Or is this a new situation, and if so, will someone else ultimately repay my spirit in this life or another? These are things I wonder about sometimes.
I completely understand those feelings for I have had them within myself many times. Seeing it reflected back to me in yourself, it becomes clear as at least one observation that it can sometimes be near impossible to understand intellectually why or why not something has or has not happened, what brought about certain things, why things are they way they are. Maybe some deep meditation would cook out an answer, but if not rest in assurance that your higher self knows very well why, and that just possibly having those answers now in your conscious mind might spoil the game. Afterall, this is not the density of understanding.
Much love and healing to you my friend,
L