Ebb and Flow

[Steppingfeet]

If I could have one definite spiritual experience, it would be to get a good explanation of why I have these afflictions and what I'm supposed to do about them for my evolution. Is this plan A or plan B? Is there some type of insight that would make me free of these problems? Or is the whole point that they limit what I can do, so I'm required to make a more explicit choice of faith vs. despair as the fundamental precondition of this lifetime? Is there something of karma to be repaid? Or is this a new situation, and if so, will someone else ultimately repay my spirit in this life or another? These are things I wonder about sometimes.

Hi Questioner,

I would echo Lavazza's thoughts 100%. And add that it is downright absurd how little we can actually know in the incarnational experience. I have beaten my head against the condition of ignorance more times than I can count. Unless you are lucky enough to get a one-on-one with a sixth-density social memory complex (e.g., Ra) who can give you some serious insight into and confirmation of your distortions (as Carla especially received), the "why" question remains always out of reach for 99% of us.

But while I, like you, roam through darkened corridors looking for the light switch while bumping into the walls of despair, confusion, anger - and a whole host of other intricate knots possible only in the darkness - I do believe that we can make some headway in the self-knowledge department.

The means to this: silence. One-pointedness. There are answers in the silence, I believe. I second Lavazza's elevation of meditation as an aid to your process. Ra does as well:

Session #66
QUESTIONER: Then an entity who becomes aware of his polarization with respect to service-to-others might find a paradoxical situation in the case where it was unable to fully serve because of distortions chosen to reach the understanding it has reached. At this point it would seem that the entity who was aware of the mechanism might, through meditation, understand the necessary mental configuration for alleviating the physical distortion so that it could be of greater service-to-others. At this particular nexus am I correct in this thinking?

RA: I am Ra. You are correct although we might note that there are often complex reasons for the programming of a distorted physical complex pattern. In any case, meditation is always an aid to knowing the self.

Of course you know this already, but some gentle friendly nudging can never hurt, right? ; )

I hope that you are eventually able to use the catalyst to your benefit. In the meantime, I hope that you are able to approach physical pain in the fashion of Carla Rueckert who finds reason to smile and be thankful within the moment without fail, regardless of the intensity or severity of the pain.

You also wrote:

Not only is my physical health often bad, with pain, exhaustion, and poor coordination as major symptoms, but the symptoms can also escalate to slow or confused thinking. This is definitely the most frustrating aspect because I try to hard to figure out a meaning.

"Slow or confused thinking"!? What is this craziness? You must exhibit this particular symptom set when you are not participating in the forums. : )

Love and Light,
GLB