03-27-2010, 04:11 PM
Thank you for your thoughts and insights all 
Understand I have read them and have taken from them what resonates with me.
The most difficult thing here is that my mother, who at one time was a strong person, is now in a relationship with a man who goes back and forth between his wife and my mother, a man who is obviously self serving and manipulative, for he plays both women against the other. He has great fear for me, and has told her he doesn't like how I have showed up and "have taken over", even though all I have done is clean. The house was such a mess, filthy. He does, of course, fear I will expose his game, to topple his little coven of deceit, even though I have no intent to do so. My mother's catalyst is her own to learn or pass by. She lost a son already (my brother) and failed to learn the lesson from that, to love and cherish her children, yet she still chooses this man over her children.
I have also caused friction when it comes to food, and my mother has asked me not to mention food again. Of course, I try to eat healthy and want the same, though even more, for my daughter, since she is a growing child and I wish her to be healthy. Most people I have run into seem to think I am being "way out there", or "over the top" when it comes to eating healthy, and my mother and her bf clearly eat very badly. My mother has only aluminum pots, eats sugar and greasy food items like they are air. She says using aluminum pots haven't hurt her, when she has been found allergic to all but about three things on earth, to me what is a sign of aluminum and pesticide poisoning. She says that my daughter "needs to eat pesticides so she builds up a tolerance to them"... such ignorance. People hide behind ignorance and fear as though they want to die, and really, don't they? To live without the truth of unity is the most difficult thing.
Now, when it comes to the gag order. I have always been outspoken if it is right. Should I respect her wishes or leave? I will not be told to shut up about something that should be a basic right as a human being. That means food and anything else. Am I wrong?
Understand I have read them and have taken from them what resonates with me.The most difficult thing here is that my mother, who at one time was a strong person, is now in a relationship with a man who goes back and forth between his wife and my mother, a man who is obviously self serving and manipulative, for he plays both women against the other. He has great fear for me, and has told her he doesn't like how I have showed up and "have taken over", even though all I have done is clean. The house was such a mess, filthy. He does, of course, fear I will expose his game, to topple his little coven of deceit, even though I have no intent to do so. My mother's catalyst is her own to learn or pass by. She lost a son already (my brother) and failed to learn the lesson from that, to love and cherish her children, yet she still chooses this man over her children.
I have also caused friction when it comes to food, and my mother has asked me not to mention food again. Of course, I try to eat healthy and want the same, though even more, for my daughter, since she is a growing child and I wish her to be healthy. Most people I have run into seem to think I am being "way out there", or "over the top" when it comes to eating healthy, and my mother and her bf clearly eat very badly. My mother has only aluminum pots, eats sugar and greasy food items like they are air. She says using aluminum pots haven't hurt her, when she has been found allergic to all but about three things on earth, to me what is a sign of aluminum and pesticide poisoning. She says that my daughter "needs to eat pesticides so she builds up a tolerance to them"... such ignorance. People hide behind ignorance and fear as though they want to die, and really, don't they? To live without the truth of unity is the most difficult thing.
Now, when it comes to the gag order. I have always been outspoken if it is right. Should I respect her wishes or leave? I will not be told to shut up about something that should be a basic right as a human being. That means food and anything else. Am I wrong?