07-29-2013, 11:29 AM
I've had a few crazy dreams, some pretty intense, let's see what I can dredge up...
A few nights ago my husband and I were talking as we were drifting off and I haphazardly set my intentions to recall a past life. However, I did not set my intentions to remember. >.> I apparently was making pained noises all night long, and even once called out loud enough that I woke both of us completely up. No idea what was going on though, what a shame!
Last night was seriously distressing. I was very close to a male entity, in some sort of relationship with him, and he died suddenly. I didn't know for a few days - he died on a Saturday, was buried Sunday, and I found out Monday (today?). I was so overcome with grief that I could not stop sobbing. To distract myself I signed up for a bus ride to some destination (before bed last night I was watching a documentary on an Italian travel agency that set up bus trips to Morocco - it was very similar to this) I was sobbing still fairly non-stop on this bus full of people, but most were tolerant. At one point a song from a band I liked came on the radio, and I sang every word, which lifted my heart. However, when I was done, the person sitting next to me (specifically a boy I used to sit next to in elementary school, who used to write me love notes) had written a note on his finger, which in short had insulted me, my singing, and the song I had recited. I started sobbing uncontrollably again.
We stopped at a taco joint to get food and absolutely everything on the menu had ground beef. I was willing to eat some cheese/sour cream but ground beef is pretty nasty, so I passed, and the attendants at the restaurant laughed at me. While everyone was eating I looked up at the sky, and there was an amazing show going on, with purples and blues amongst the clouds. At another point when I looked up a round cloud appeared, and started growing, until it was huge in the sky, and then it exploded into bits like a snowball, or a firework. These things made me feel better.
Not 100% sure who or what I was mourning, but I do have an image that reminds me of a childhood neighbor who shot and killed himself accidentally several years ago.
A few nights ago my husband and I were talking as we were drifting off and I haphazardly set my intentions to recall a past life. However, I did not set my intentions to remember. >.> I apparently was making pained noises all night long, and even once called out loud enough that I woke both of us completely up. No idea what was going on though, what a shame!
Last night was seriously distressing. I was very close to a male entity, in some sort of relationship with him, and he died suddenly. I didn't know for a few days - he died on a Saturday, was buried Sunday, and I found out Monday (today?). I was so overcome with grief that I could not stop sobbing. To distract myself I signed up for a bus ride to some destination (before bed last night I was watching a documentary on an Italian travel agency that set up bus trips to Morocco - it was very similar to this) I was sobbing still fairly non-stop on this bus full of people, but most were tolerant. At one point a song from a band I liked came on the radio, and I sang every word, which lifted my heart. However, when I was done, the person sitting next to me (specifically a boy I used to sit next to in elementary school, who used to write me love notes) had written a note on his finger, which in short had insulted me, my singing, and the song I had recited. I started sobbing uncontrollably again.
We stopped at a taco joint to get food and absolutely everything on the menu had ground beef. I was willing to eat some cheese/sour cream but ground beef is pretty nasty, so I passed, and the attendants at the restaurant laughed at me. While everyone was eating I looked up at the sky, and there was an amazing show going on, with purples and blues amongst the clouds. At another point when I looked up a round cloud appeared, and started growing, until it was huge in the sky, and then it exploded into bits like a snowball, or a firework. These things made me feel better.
Not 100% sure who or what I was mourning, but I do have an image that reminds me of a childhood neighbor who shot and killed himself accidentally several years ago.
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