I have a confession to make.

[AnthroHeart]

I'm able to explore my spirituality safer now that I'm on medication. For me, it helps. Keeps me grounded while I explore the infinite. I still am somewhat leery of trying to contact or channel Ra, because of all the protection you need. I've supposedly got bipolar, which is somewhat interesting. I've felt like a child, where everything was new, and exciting. And I've been down feeling like my best friend was going to attack me at night. The things I have hallucinated have been beautiful. I no longer hallucinate on my medication, but that's fine. Creator is grand to me. I can't even fathom the infinite. There is a song called "I can't take infinity" which has a part in the middle that I like. I agree with that. While here in 3D I can't take infinity. It really surprises me that anyone can. When I've tried seeking the infinite, I get negative greetings galore. So I stay in my safe little box. Or perhaps box is the wrong word. I like to be secure and safe. I ask my guardian angel to help keep me safe and secure. And every so often I'll get brave and ask them to align my chakras or help my energy field somehow. I sure hope after all is said and done that I've had made the right choice. And hope I have polarized enough.

And most of all I hope the Ra material is true, that after this life we will walk the steps of light, and not have to repeat incarnations. I can't imagine going through another 25,000 years in 3D.