09-08-2013, 01:24 PM
I had a dream that was one of those super long ones. In it, there was a child that was basically a troublemaker. He did what he wanted, and because he was willing to live in freedom he was immensely cool and popular. This was causing trouble for grownups, and a figure in the dream cornered this carefree child in the attic of my parents house and cut his hands off. With a combination of sympathy and rage, he then continued to kill the child.
I was a very close friend of this child that was murdered, and as I continued on in my life, I encountered situation after situation that gave me clues as to who it was that had done this to my best friend. Finally, at a party at a school near the house I managed to put the clues together. As my dad offered me a glass of wine, I confronted him about killing my best friend. As I was confronting my dad, I was realizing that my friend was somehow me and that an important part of myself had been dead for a long time.
On a completely unrelated note, at this party I found a cute asian lady and had sex with her and she turned out to be my mom. We'll just ignore that part. :p
Basically, what I got after I woke up is that early in my life, societal pressures and influences persuaded me to kill my carefree, joyful, bad-boy self. (father represents government/societal pressures, mother represents friends/family pressures) Early in highschool, I developed problems with my wrists where they would crack and pop when I would roll them. This was the original purpose of my seeking as I quickly found out that wrist surgery rarely helped wrist tendinitus. My seeking intensified as when I would travel 90 miles to visit a friend and go to a rave, all my joints would feel perfectly fine after dancing all night long. This made me feel that my medical condition was mental/psychological instead of medical. This is some serious shadow self s***. Fo-realz
After awakening, my guides said that they would help me as I continued to heal my shadow. Moving may or may not be necessary in this process. They also mentioned that getting some reiki from Tanner was instrumental in the beginning of the healing of this distortion.
Thanks Tanner!
I was a very close friend of this child that was murdered, and as I continued on in my life, I encountered situation after situation that gave me clues as to who it was that had done this to my best friend. Finally, at a party at a school near the house I managed to put the clues together. As my dad offered me a glass of wine, I confronted him about killing my best friend. As I was confronting my dad, I was realizing that my friend was somehow me and that an important part of myself had been dead for a long time.
On a completely unrelated note, at this party I found a cute asian lady and had sex with her and she turned out to be my mom. We'll just ignore that part. :p
Basically, what I got after I woke up is that early in my life, societal pressures and influences persuaded me to kill my carefree, joyful, bad-boy self. (father represents government/societal pressures, mother represents friends/family pressures) Early in highschool, I developed problems with my wrists where they would crack and pop when I would roll them. This was the original purpose of my seeking as I quickly found out that wrist surgery rarely helped wrist tendinitus. My seeking intensified as when I would travel 90 miles to visit a friend and go to a rave, all my joints would feel perfectly fine after dancing all night long. This made me feel that my medical condition was mental/psychological instead of medical. This is some serious shadow self s***. Fo-realz
After awakening, my guides said that they would help me as I continued to heal my shadow. Moving may or may not be necessary in this process. They also mentioned that getting some reiki from Tanner was instrumental in the beginning of the healing of this distortion.
Thanks Tanner!