The mystery that perplexes me the most...

[Unbound]

So what is the intelligent infinity doing with its intelligence, exactly? Makes little sense to me how an infinity of intelligence bases all of its existences on chaotic interplay. How can any pattern or design be manifest without first the design in potential?

You are doing anything and everything you can to make yourself God. You are allowed to do this as you please, but I admit I am at a loss as to your desires. I think you may be running from something which you have never even taken the time to perceive in itself. You are in a fortress of beliefs and I grant you, it is quite impenetrable. Nothing in, or out.

I do not know exactly what I believe, but I can say that in my personal, existential experience, I have experienced both ordered and chaotic views of the universe and it is wholey ridiculous to me to attempt to treat either as superior or above the other. Were you not striving for equality between all things in your view most recently?

Do not all states exist simultaneously and it is only the kaleiscopic perception of the One which is experiencing itself?

I commend your thoughts, but I am afraid I am not able to follow them.

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How can the microcosm exclude the macrocosm?

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I can feel your fear of there being anything beyond your understanding, a quaking at the concept of the unknown. Perhaps I am projecting or making things up, but your whole system as I perceive it feels like it is running, trying to escape from something which is seen to be destructive to what you are. I do not know, but it makes my heart hurt.