The mystery applies to Creator?

[Unbound]

It is getting difficult to approach Creator any closer in this life. I'm on medication for schizophrenia, which came about because I was approaching Creator in an unbalanced manner without sufficient grounding. I'm having trouble keeping my will going strong. I am not physically worn out because I get enough sleep. That's why I called it spiritual weariness. The medication keeps me from approaching any closer to Creator, and has set me back quite a distance. There's not any real magic in my life. I have those I love, which help me to demonstrate unconditional love, and see Creator in others. I've looked in the mirror and said "hello Creator" so I identify myself as Creator. This Creator wants desperately to get back to creating galaxies and being a star. And this time not in a simulation like my past has been. Creator went through several simulations, and passed the tests. Creator is not greedy was one of the first tests. But when Creator was at Logos level, there was no rest for him because of the limits of the 3D mind in framing a galaxy.

Perhaps it must now be learned that the Creator is both human and infinity and we are part of that. I get a strong sense that there is still worthwhile work for you to do here. I understand you want to be close to Creator, but how much closer than interacting and exploring and experiencing the mysterious experience that is the Creator can one get?