(09-15-2013, 03:40 PM)caycegal Wrote:So after discussing it with some others and examining closer for myself I find that this was an experience with my shadow self. I'm never mad or even close to having rage in waking life and I use no violence of any sort.(09-15-2013, 10:39 AM)MarcRammer Wrote: I had a dream that my wife and I were driving to vacation down a highway. Than things happened on the road and I almost hit a bunch of people and people were driving super crazy. My wife was asleep during that and I pulled off the highway into a small town to get my bearings again. She woke up and we got out of the car and went to a little shop. When we came out and walked across the street a jeep kept trying to hit my wife. I got super pissed and jumped off the ground and tried to punch the guy in the passenger seat but my wife held me back and told me not to. I became aware that I was dreaming then and tried to use lucid super powers in my rage against the guys in the jeep. But my powers didn't work. I was only as strong as I am in waking life. I fought them and my wife jumped in on it. I beat the driver out of the car and the passenger wouldn't stop fighting me. I eventually twisted his neck around and kept slowly twisting and after a long time of twisting it finally gave a faint pop. I still wasn't for sure he was dead but I threw him out of the truck anyways. I need the keys from the driver and then the scene changes. I'm by the edge of a cliff and the guys are in a ship with a hot air balloon connected to it. My wife and I attack with powerful weapons and defeat them after blowing each side of the ship up. We then go in the ship and I find the passengers journal. We was writing about us in there and it wasn't totally good, but wasn't bad either. He also had a black and white picture of us in it. My wife wanted to see what I was reading and then freaked out when she saw it. We then decided to dispose if the ship by shoving it down the cliff side. We pushed it over and she was with it and it scared me that she was gonna fall and die but she had some super powers to skim right back up the side of the steep incline. We then needed to get rid of the balloon so we threw it over and she skimmed down with it and so did I. On the way up a bunch of immigrants from Mexico came to us and asked us if we had any work for them. We went up the hill and were with some people from my old choir and were singing a cool song. I knew I was dreaming and tried to take the song with me out of my dream and then awoke with next to no memory of the song.
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I find it interesting that this was the first time I became aware of dreaming while being in complete rage. Mostly I am meditating in my dream and then become lucid and am in a state of unity within myself. The rage seemed to block my senses from see all as myself, so even though I was aware I was dreaming I was still not in reality 'lucid'.
Interesting, please post if you get any of it figured out. Is rage something you deal with much in waking life? Nice that you and your wife are able to work together as a team.
This dream was showing me the potential for another side of me. My male and female energies were working together and capable of great destruction.
It's a bit hard for me to accept that I have the potential of great rage and destruction within me, but I do. And I must learn to accept it as a part of myself while also choosing my actions that I wish to use.
It's a great thing that I got to experience this rage and violence in a safe setting to get to understand it without actually causing harm to others, to prompt me to acknowledge my shadow self.
And also,
While my shadow self had much power it wasn't the same amount of power as my light self. It was very limited because in my rage I was unable to see the greater truth (that all is one).