09-17-2013, 11:14 AM
I had a dream last night where I was given a violin to play. The person who handed it to me played a beautiful song on it to show me how it was done and then handed it over. However, I was having a hard time figuring out how to make music with it, with the strings not really making much noise when I would draw the bow across them, and my fingers having a hard time forming chords. Instantly all these people who were around me wait expectantly ffor me to make some music started going "oh let me see that" "let me try" "here let me show you how to do it" etc. not really giving me a chance to figure it out on my own. I let one of them have the violin and they started messing with the tuning so I grabbed it back, another person grabbed the bow and started messing around with it, whacking it against things and messing with the hairs so I had to take it back from them. Then at the end of the dream I was still trying to play my violin which was now de-tuned with a slightly warped bow, though now I was starting to get some sound from the strings.
When I thought about the dream I realized that it had to do with one of my major challenges in this life which how I often let others shape my life for me, submitting myself to their will and their ideas of what I should do. For a long time I would just let other people make decisions for me because they seemed so eager to see me succeed that I thought they must have my best interests at heart and I just really wanted to make them happy. I see now that I have done myself a lot of harm by not allowing myself to experiment and learn from my own choices or to develop the willpower to make my own choices and see them through, since other people, even if they have my best interests at heart, don't really know the real me and what I need. Now I have started to take back my power, just like at the end of the dream with me grabbing back the violin and bow and starting to play again for myself, but there is some damage to be undone.
When I thought about the dream I realized that it had to do with one of my major challenges in this life which how I often let others shape my life for me, submitting myself to their will and their ideas of what I should do. For a long time I would just let other people make decisions for me because they seemed so eager to see me succeed that I thought they must have my best interests at heart and I just really wanted to make them happy. I see now that I have done myself a lot of harm by not allowing myself to experiment and learn from my own choices or to develop the willpower to make my own choices and see them through, since other people, even if they have my best interests at heart, don't really know the real me and what I need. Now I have started to take back my power, just like at the end of the dream with me grabbing back the violin and bow and starting to play again for myself, but there is some damage to be undone.