10-20-2013, 10:56 PM
(10-20-2013, 02:34 PM)xise Wrote:eh, a part of the problem. I wrote that at like 4 in the morning lol.(10-20-2013, 11:21 AM)Aloysius Wrote: ...I realise I've grown into something I wish I wasn't.
What do you feel you have grown into?
It just made me realize a strong naivety that exists on this forum, something I've willingly taken on and blinded myself to my true nature. Thus I need to leave to pursue my own path, it's the opposite of what you guys seek. I was born with memories of my path, it's not something I think a lot of people share here. I've had people after me my whole life, I've always run, established barriers, isolated myself. I'm only starting to see why they have an interest, I'm going back to the people that "attacked" me, this time willingly.
The STS path is not as manipulation or power centered as many here seem to think. It's self service, lessons of the self that is all, perfection of self and uniqueness of experience, rising above the thresholds formed by collectives who never escape their limits. The control aspect has to do with the universe being my body, if there is a degree of randomness forming a virus in an organ of mine such as bring4th forums, I must take steps for my own health to optimize potential for learning of self for myself by bringing control to certain parameters. The parameter I will alter is my involvement, I am happy to see others seek but will no longer be a part of it.
Power/manipulation/control are tools not the objective.
This place is toxic for people like me.