Hiding From The Self

[Sagittarius]

Brittney, I'm just going to vent in your thread, hope you don't mind.

I've been worn out for the past year. Before that, I had been repressing just about all my major lessons. I'm not depressed. I'm not angry. I'm just SOOOOOO tired. Once or twice a week, I go through a cycle where I sink down and release, feel great, and then (what feels like way too soon, usually a couple hours, the next day if I'm lucky) move on to the next lesson.

And the crazy thing is, I'm honestly overall doing better each time I go through this cycle. It doesn't change the fact that I feel like I'm constantly trying as hard as I can to choose love, and I'm completely exhausted.

And at the bottom of it all, I know that I'm the one that is pushing myself this hard. That I could just relax and let things flow to me, but instead I'm constantly looking for the opportunity where I change my life in an instant.

Every opportunity is one you can change in an instant. Gotta move your feet before you move your hands. Keep or kill it's your choice. Remembering you keep what you kill of-course .