Seeing a Therapist

[caycegal]

GW, I notice the way you described defiance in response to Tanner's questions in another thread seems involve yellow-ray concepts involved with power.

Key to my journey in resolving my bdd mental health issues was building up my orange ray, but also my yellow ray. After working on self-acceptance, I hit a wall where I still had my depressive thoughts. It was only after 2-3 months of deciding directly to work on my yellow ray issues, did I transform.

The night I decided to change my current focus to yellow ray I had a dream where thousands of dying worms came out of my body. It was clear that my beliefs about yellow ray power were parasitic in nature and diminished my ability to be a radiant being.

6-18-13 clean and still going

Orange/Yellow Ray Power is invaluable to the positive entity:

75.32 Questioner: The three aspects of the magical personality are stated to be power, love, and wisdom. Is this correct and are these the only primary aspects of the magical personality?

Ra: I am Ra. The three aspects of the magical personality, power, love, and wisdom, are so called in order that attention be paid to each aspect in developing the basic tool of the adept; that is, its self. It is by no means a personality of three aspects. It is a being of unity, being of sixth density and equivalent to what you call your higher self and, at the same time, is a personality enormously rich in variety of experience and subtlety of emotion.

The three aspects are given that the neophyte not abuse the tools of its trade but rather approach those tools balanced in the center of love and wisdom and thus seeking power in order to serve.

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75.39 Questioner: Then is it correct that a good sequence for developing the invocation of the magical personality are alternate meditations, first on power, then a meditation on love, and then a meditation on wisdom and to continue cycling that way? Is that an appropriate technique?

Ra: I am Ra. This is indeed an appropriate technique. In this particular group there is an additional aid in that each entity manifests one of these qualities in a manner which approaches the archetype. Thusly visualization may be personalized and much love and support within the group generated.

xise, can you be more specific about techniques you use for working on yellow (and other) rays?

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I haven't opened up with everything. But most things I've been trusting of my therapist. He agrees the drugs are good for me to keep me sane. I don't have the will or faith to handle the episodes by myself. I just like talking with him, so I get a little bit honest. There isn't really anything I wished I hadn't told him, and I think he appreciates my honesty with him.

It's just bad that in my upcoming court case my lawyer won't be using my therapist. I thought he would make a good witness of how I've changed since I went from not knowing right from wrong to being level headed.

I'm not really seeking spiritually, so if the meds slow my spiritual growth, I don't really have a problem with that. I still seem to have a somewhat active indigo ray. And my green ray seems to be about average. Sometimes I feel it, sometimes not.

I've been on my medication for the last 10 months. They do numb me out a bit, so I don't really feel joy anymore. But I also don't experience terror. There is a lot better place I wish I could be. It would be nice to be without the meds. But after 3 times trying to stop, and 3 times having episodes, I can't chance going without them.

I have some people very close to me who haven't been able to get off them. It's okay, it's just another step in life.

What I do when I run out of options is to pray, pray, pray. I know some people do not believe in prayer, but I seem to remember Ra said that help can only be given to the extent to which it is requested. To whom do I pray? I ask for help, lots of help, from those who are guiding me in the spirit planes. And they do help. Sometimes it is quick and obvious. Sometimes it is a slow-moving arc only obvious over the course of years.

Wishing the best for you, little brother. If you wish it I would be happy to pray for you to be guided and surrounded by love and joy. Jesus (and some other teachers) said that when the minds of two or more are united in common cause, it is tremendously powerful.