How to get around delusions

[AnthroHeart]

I got thought hallucinations that I thought were coming from God, but I never asked if he was God or who he was.

I just said to him "when you're made out of unconditional love, anything is possible"

I kept trying to create the world of anthros that I desired by creating them in my mind, and hoping to shift the Earth to that reality. I thought this God would help me do that. I kept turning it over to him after I finished doing pieces that I thought I should do.

I know how that God wasn't talking to me. At the time I thought he was, because he was so positive for the most part.
Until he told me to kill my dog to save the Universe. And that I've been over before. I think it was a negative being posing as God. Right now I'm not sure if I believe in a God, because of my condition. Even though I wanted to experience this before I came into this life. I wanted to experience schizophrenia. But in this life it's no fun. My life feels like a big mess. But it could always be worse. At least I'm still alive and have my sight. And my dog wasn't taken away from me, so that's good.

I can't really go much more into it. I was tricked, maybe by my own dark side.