Ra on marijuana

[Parsons]

I recently got a pretty bad cold (possibly a respiratory infection), so I have quit the MJ for a couple of weeks now. I was planning on quitting very soon anyways since I was running out and for a number of different reasons.

I consider MJ to be a great fulcrum which greatly assisted me in my awakening process. Over time as I progressed, it became more and more a crutch.

After I made the decision that I was going to quit, my relationship with the substance greatly changed. It became less and less enjoyable to the point where I suffered negative feelings when consuming it most of the time. It got to the point where I felt like a chore to consume it anymore, like I was just trying to get through it so I wouldn't waste the last of it that I went through so much effort to grow.

I have decided that I will almost certainly not consume it again and will dispose of what's left of it soon.

I have felt really amazing since stopping it. My mental clarity is to a level never before experienced in this incarnation. I think that is partially due to the gotu kola I have been consuming regularly for quite a long time now. I don't feel random, unexplained depression or paranoia any more, and when I do feel depressed, it's much less marked than before. I have also felt like I have more energy and have been eating less (especially high sugar foods). I have already dropped 5 pounds and have been excercising, meditating, and star gazing in the time I would spend on MJ.