If you could only teach me one thing...

[greywolf]

I believe adept is inherently yellow ray, if one is drawn to that line then integrity and self-sufficiency (like another poster pointed out) are paramount. You seem to be aware of deficiency in this area yourself, but still ask questions and/or approval from others. You seem to have concluded your original intent was wrong and the world was right, and maybe developed some issues that way. There is no infringement of free will if the assistance is given in response to a request, only if there is paternalism and holier-than-thou attitudes.