Wanderer or Pride & Ego?

[KMcNay]

I was reading through the Wanderer's Handbook and it all resonates with me. However, this question has appeared. What if our experience of feeling different and all that is suggested in the handbook is just pride and ego, or a way to try and justify why we feel bad in some way? Is saying we're a Wanderer true because the majority of the population doesn't feel as we do, or is it a way to feel special? I don't feel special - I feel inadequate to cope a lot of the time. I see other people who are "seemingly" happy or content most of the time and are doing well with friends, their jobs, and money. They socialize and take vacations. They manage to live in a way that I don't and I see myself as really capable. I've had periods of doing relatively well, for me, and I manage to pay my rent and feed myself, but I can't seem to get ahead to start another business or get a significant financial cushion. I just got ahead by a few hundred and it just went into car repairs. Don't get me wrong I AM grateful I could take care of this car repair, but that feels a little too much on the edge for comfort most of the time. There are lots of needs that I don't have money for at this time and I do what I can. I don't want to borrow money or go into debt.