(02-14-2014, 05:25 PM)kycahi Wrote: Does that resonate? Perhaps you are that kind of Wanderer, but even if you are not a Wanderer at all, why not pretend that you are one and dedicate yourself to being a Wanderer-Equivalent? Look upon other-selves as objects of compassion, respect and fellowship and see how far that takes you? Accept the help of others who know of your predicament(s) and play your hand.
Can anyone diagnose their own personality disorder? LOL I think you're probably right about just walking the walk and talking the talk, etc. I have to keep a tight rein on anger when I feel my livelihood is threatened in some way or my manage is just paying lip service and not giving me the assistance to change jobs/cross train or whatever that he is giving others. I try to keep myself in situations where I can't be micro-managed and where I work independently. This is what's changed and I feel disregarded and cornered. This situation came out of the blue. I feel bad that I can't seem to play the game and just keep a sunshine attitude when I don't feel like that inside, although other people manage to get away with that. I feel like a failure that I can't just protect love and light to the situation and walk in faith. I am a wanderer, but I still like if I've done this before that it should easier this time around.
(02-14-2014, 11:11 PM)KMcNay Wrote:(02-14-2014, 05:25 PM)kycahi Wrote: Does that resonate? Perhaps you are that kind of Wanderer, but even if you are not a Wanderer at all, why not pretend that you are one and dedicate yourself to being a Wanderer-Equivalent? Look upon other-selves as objects of compassion, respect and fellowship and see how far that takes you? Accept the help of others who know of your predicament(s) and play your hand.
Can anyone diagnose their own personality disorder? LOL I think you're probably right about just walking the walk and talking the talk, etc. I have to keep a tight rein on anger when I feel my livelihood is threatened in some way. My manage is just paying lip service and not giving me the assistance to change jobs/cross train or whatever that he is giving others, although my job performances are good and he says he wants to keep me long term. The situation feel two-faced. I try to keep myself in situations where I can't be micro-managed and where I work independently. This is what has changed and I feel disregarded and cornered. This situation came out of the blue. I feel bad that I can't seem to play the game and just keep a sunshine attitude when I don't feel like that inside, although other people manage to get away with that. I feel like a failure that I can't just protect love and light to the situation and walk in faith. I am a wanderer, but I still feel that if I've done this before that it should easier this time around. I guess it's ego/pride because I'm much more qualified than this position and even my manager doesn't understand the depth of my resume and experience.
(02-14-2014, 07:10 PM)Gemini Wolf Wrote: I for one feel the alienation. I don't really resonate strongly with anyone I've met. Not in a loving way. perhaps that's something to work on.
Have you tried finding new places to hang out? I find I'm more in sync with some groups of people or environments than others.