Wanderer or Pride & Ego?

[Greg]

IMO if you are going to do that to try to determine if you are a wanderer, I would suggest you try to do it from a neutral point rather than seeing 3rd density as a preferable "background".

Yes, I certainly agree that it is neutral either way. I'm just saying that if I believe myself to be a wanderer, I want to be sure that I'm not forming this belief merely because I want to. So I try to correct for this potential bias and see how it feels.

I'm ultimately just trying to explore all the little nooks and crannies of my subconscious, trying out new perspectives as if trying on a pair of shoes. For example, I might try meditating on the perspective of an Earth native, and ask myself, does this feel right? Labeling myself as a wanderer certainly seems to "fit" on some level, but is there another perspective that fits just as well? If so, what is it, and why would it seem to fit?

I just don't want my brain to take the lazy way out by saying, "Earth is full of evil people and third density lacks wisdom; therefore, I place myself above this planet and above this density." Rather, I want to make sure that I'm fully appreciating planet Earth, the love of its people, and the bittersweet beauty of the struggle that is third density before I conclude that it is nonetheless not my home.

I'm reminded of this quote from Q'uo in A Wanderer's Handbook:

"When the term, wanderer, is used, the basic meaning of this word is of one who is traveling without reference to a specific goal or destination. There is, implicit in this term, a feeling or an emotional/mental mindset of aloneness, restlessness, shared solitude and indifferent scenery. The winds blow cold and harshly for the wanderer. The sun beats down mercilessly. Few there are who use that term who feel that it is desirable to be a wandering spirit."

When I first read that paragraph, it hit me like a brick. I felt a tinge of sadness, and yet, a strange comfort, as if being reminded of what I had undertaken.

All I'm really saying here is that there is absolutely no superiority in being a wanderer, and if believing yourself to be a wanderer makes you feel superior to those around you, then I would recommend reflection on both the beauty of third-density Earth natives and the less desirable traits associated with being a wandering spirit.

Only once you've really internalized both elements can you begin to honestly assess whether you might be a wanderer, free from the distorting influences of pride and ego. Ultimately, though, you're completely right -- it's a neutral either way.