Aloha

[sunnysideup]

Thanks for your welcome, GLB.

Not to worry, native English speakers (self included) have a tough time with Ra's language. I can imagine that the difficulties are amplified for someone whose native language is not English.

That's a relieve
and you're right even with the proper translation the material, for me, is still quite difficult to understand. Luckily I like a challenge.

For me it was a rather painful state of affairs. But it sounds like perhaps you are experiencing the opposite? You are realizing the importance of connection with loved ones, and are making efforts to
be more connected?

I think it's because I grew up in a supporting and understanding family (especially my father's side) and I've always been proud of my roots. Both my grandparents grew up in tribal communities where they lived in harmony with nature and were very in tune with the metaphysical world. So I feel blessed that they passed down the ways of my ancestors on to me and for being my guides on my spiritual path. I think that my awakening was the moment I could sort of incorporated my ancestors teachings with everything I've learned so far, this was after/during reading the Law of One. The dissociation started pior to reading the Law of One, because I feel we are living in a society where money reigns supreme and where we have lost total touch of nature. And the worst part is I'm also to blame for I've done nothing about it except contribute to further poluting Mother Earth. I'm sad and mostly ashamed about
it and that's why I find it harder to keep a gameface. Let's just say I still struggle to get past that and to change that sadness and shame into love.
Did you find your family not being supportive of your views on life at that time? Don't you have an ancestor/family member you admire or can resonate with?

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