04-12-2014, 04:41 AM
(04-12-2014, 03:30 AM)Tanner Wrote: I admit I am somewhat frightened of myself when I 'get serious' which is why I try to keep myself as light as possible. When I get in to a state of serious contemplation and assertiveness it is when my warrior self comes out and maybe I have to rebuild my respect for that warrior self because while I used to understand it from a point of power I am still attempting to grasp its nature on the point of love.
That's an interesting place to observe from, in my experience. There's a queer juxtaposition of personal power and helplessness, and the more you sit there, the more the feeling of power turns into something else, something less personal and less protective.
It's a damned lonely place to be, too. But that can be a good thing insofar as it can expose the path forward...perhaps?
Sometimes one has to look back at the roads not taken and, rather than focus on the parts of self that have become over-activated, observe and participate in those which were left for another time. Perhaps there are under-activated parts of you that are seeking gentle recognition and engagement?